Love Revolution.

Shifting in the Heavens.

Revival is really raining down. I saw a shirt today on C28 that said, “The next revival will not be broadcasted on tv but in secret.” It made me think of revival in solemn assembly. I do not think it should have to be in private but not like “hey look at us we are in revival”! I think revival needs to be not only for one region but for the whole body of Christ. How do revive the church? How do we get people to burn for Christ and lay their life down to sit at his feet? The revival has to start in each one of us. Every person is called to burn. John Wesley said, Catch yourself on fire and others will come to watch you burn. No one in the body of Christ is called to complacency. Read the New Testament. Live to burn for him and when your flame goes out hopefully your body will go out too! With the day of Atonement last week our community of believers really made a big deal of it. For two weeks the church was fasting and praying every night at the church.  Revival is happening in our community but we do not want it to end in Shreveport we want to hit the whole world. We– meaning the hands and the feet of the body of Christ. 

Last night God kept me awake all night. I took communion before I got in bed and it was the most moving supper I have ever had. Pastor preached on not being Destination Sick, or not serving God for his hand or emotional euphoric experiences but loving his face and only seeking his face. I came home and turned on Matt Gillum and had a party with Jesus. It is a new level that I can not explain in English, my soul could explain! Haha.. During communion I realized that this life really does not matter to me at all. I’m just passing through. I was broken when I really started thinking about Christ Jesus allowing me to just pass through with the covenant of his blood. Thank you Jesus. I know this is so simple and was revealed to me and the whole body a long time ago, I just know there are many layers and Christ will let you get closer and closer to him by revealing more and more of his love! I just focus on Psalms 51:10, and creating a clean vessel that The Holy Spirit can flow through, and then seeking him like a lover in Song of Solomon or Isaiah 55:6. God kept me awake all night to listen to him and the chaos in my building. The noise was not bothering me, I sleep to it every night as long as I have my Keith Miller, Atmosphere of the Spirit playing softly. Last night I could not sleep I prayed for God to give me rest I even read scriptures on resting, and then I realized that maybe he wanted me to be a watchman that night. I guess an intercessor needed a night off! I was not in constant deep prayer, just in and out of sleep and praying for everyone that I could hear talking. I went into my living room and I was listening to some glory music just soaking and my neighbor turned on loud gospel music. She is a single white mother, the stereotypical junkie. I looked at my clock and it was 4:28am. My first reaction was she is trippin’ and this was the only thing on Tv, and then I started listening to the words of the song, it was just saying Thank you Jesus I love you for what you have done for me. She listened to that same song for an hour on repeat. It was really anointed. Something in me broke when I realized that people next to me were reaching out for Gods face and I had done nothing to show it to her. Even if she was on a trip there was something in her screaming out for God to grab her hand. I knew then that she was hungry for God and that she had probably grown up Spirit-filled or had been around it. I think God kept me up all night to hear that. Thank you Jesus, for what you have done in my life I love you.. In my eyes she does not have a good life, but she is still thankful. I broke. I had to repent. I try to be Christ-Like in every way but I have passed her and I have not had the courage to love on her because she looks hard to love. Anyways I am so sorry God and I will change my thinking even more.. TAKE ME LOWER LORD and release me from the captivity of the fear of Man. Anyways God restored my sleep. I have had the most blissful day that I have had in a really long time. Glory to the King who reigns forever and ever!

Liger Goes to the Pound.

Dad would say humane society, but I will just say cruel and unjust pound. In Liger’s case it may be a just place for the demon of a Persian fluff ball cat, but I will still say it is a cruel place. I volunteered at a “humane society” for awhile a few years back. It was when I was really big into animals, an active member in the Anti-Vivisection Society always writing senators, representatives, and corporations gruelingly long angry letters about animal rights. I would try to convince everyone to be a vegetarian, even though I was never a vegetarian because of animal rights, I did go vegan for awhile to be the animals advocate. I also would go in sit on a quilt in the middle of a park and toke and laugh about how my life was all about love, we called it the Summer of love.. I really had no idea what love was. I claimed to live in all of this love but in all actuality I was searching for a love that I had lost several years before. Back to Liger (I always have to get so stinkin’ spiritual and heavy.. Ease up Audra.. Gaaa) this cat is seriously so mean but he is really smart. He will chase you and play hide- and- go-seek. Well my parents moved and I guess that made Liger mad, he went no. 1 all over my Mom’s couches! My Mom started going off (actually I was not there so I don’t know what actually happened but knowing the mad logic of the Frederick household, Im sure this is what happened!). Dad got mad packed Liger and his science Diet up in his truck and dropped him at the pound along with a $40 guilt donation, purposely while my sister was sleeping! Mom got physically sick and locked herself in the bedroom while Andi went into hysterics. I was told and got very mad. To say the least either Daddy felt bad that he had abandoned little Liger or he knew that he would have three women really mad at him for a really long time. The funny thing is that he had to pay to get all of Liger’s shots updated and to get a chip installed. Now Liger is formally the Anti-Christ. Haha.. So Dad’s little anger driven outing with Liger cost a pretty penny. Haha.. That makes me laugh really hard. A coworker came up and I was laughing out loud at my own jokes..   

The Passenger

I found myself in anger, I cried out in despair I prayed, "Lord let them hear me! Let just one person care!"

I raised my voice to heaven as the train kept moving on

As we passed behind the church yard I could hear the worship songs.

I cried out all the louder to the Christians there inside but they raised the chorus louder not hearing me outside.

I knew they heard the whistle and the clacking of the tracks

They knew that I was going to die and still they turned their backs.

I said, "Father in heaven how can your people be so very hard of hearing to the cry of one like me?"

I shouted, "please have mercy! Just a prayer before I die"

But they sang a little louder to the Holy One on high.

They raised their hands to heaven but blood was dripping down

The blood of all the innocent their voices tried to drown.

They have devotions daily, they function in my name

And they never even realized it was I upon that train.

"For as much as you’ve done it to the least of my brethren, you have done it unto Me."

Jesus Christ.

The Lord is with You Mighty Warrior!

This past week has been a blur of the supernatural. God has been showing up, or maybe I am just noticing him more, because I know he is always here. I do not know if I blogged about this, but about three weeks ago I was taking a shower and talking to God. He told me that I was supposed to move in with the poor to know how live a life without luxury. Humility is the only way to the Kingdom. Think Beatitudes! Shreveport as many may know is a mini Harlem. Kind of dangerous when you go from Austin to Kentucky to here. It’s good my life started off in Aldine/Houston! So, over the past couple of weeks I tried to get into the worst of the worst neighborhoods. I never felt peace about any place, when you’re spirit led feeling peace is the icing on the cake! Finally there was peace about a place. The Fairmont. It is downtown a few streets away from the bottom boys (the gang that likes to kill FBI people). I feel safe though because I know I am in the will of God and because my Angel has been spotted several times lately! The building is full of people to love on! I have met so many people who just need love. Plus God is using the most unlikely candidates to follow out his will. My house was added to the “protected” houses. There is a little group of people that say they protect/run the place! Ummm.. Kind of sounds like a gang or mob but hey if that is who God wants to use to protect me from another dealer or lowlife then in Jesus name send me gang members to be my angels. Then they will see the love of Christ and they will come to know my sweet savior! I think I am more afraid of the army of roaches. I feel like im living a ‘Joe’s Apartment’ scene! Roach Rodeo! Haha! Plus, I see Jesus in needy people more than anyone else, so I would rather be around them anyways. My house is supposed to be a house of refuge and love. I went into a vision the other day and saw one of the lobbies filled with people, there was a crazy glow around them, and it was warm but cold out side. There was a feeling of comfort and home. They were all there to hear the word of the Lord and to worship. I know this will happen. Racial barriers will crash, Addiction will crumble, and love will explode! My parents came to visit and bring me my furniture and they really lifted me up when they were not negative at all, even though the enemy was on assignment to scare them. It was chaotic! They minister to me so much by trusting in God. I know it has to be hard to be my parents. They will have a lot of crowns in Heaven because I have put them through the ropes with my life before Christ and then all of my transitions. It was even prophesied that all of the problems they had were to form me and my sister as a ministers. I am their witness that they really went through the fire in every circuit of life. They will be restored for everything! They are mighty in God’s eyes!

My angel

Our church is going thorough a time of prayer and fasting, especially during Rosh Hashanah. We have had prayer everyday at God’s House and miraculous and supernatural is becoming normal. Anyways two sundays ago a small group of us were praying and manifesting Glory by talking about the Kingdom. We were entertaining Angels big time. I still have scales on my eyes, but I could physically feel them, I could spiritually feel them, and I could hear them. It has always been the desire of my heart to see my personal Angel “Guardian Angel”. We were sitting there and this prophet starts flipping out saying that he (my angel) is behind me. She said, “He is an African warrior 8ft tall and muscular, he is dressed like a warrior with the sphere and rings. His name is Kabashi!” WOW! That was amazing! I had been asking God for a really long time to reveal at least my Angels name to me, low and behold he was spotted by other people all night long! God satisfies the desires of your heart, even if they are not important at all.  The next night at prayer my bishop saw an African warrior angel at the church while he was praying. It could have been my uncles angel though, because God gave him two African warrior angels to protect him. 

Anyways, These past couple weeks have been remarkable. God told me in prayer that I needed to stop being arrogant with self starting an orphanage and I needed to rescue someone dilapidating work. I fought God because I thought it would be an impossible task. I told one of my dearest friends in Uganda about what God had spoken and the next day she knew of someone that would want to work with ZAO. Well it turns out that this ministry not only wanted to partner with Zao but decided that it was God’s will for them to sign their orphanage over to Zao. They have many other works, and The Grace House Project (the orphanage) was a side ministry to help out several children after they were left homeless after another orphanage shut down. I will not go into that story! Anyways God has opened doors that no man can close. Glory be to Jesus who is good all the time! The Grace House has ten children in a three bedroom house. A friend reminded me of a conversation that we had a while back about the talents parable. There were three servants who got different amount of talents. I am claiming the ten talent blessing over the Grace House! This December the Zao board is going to Kampala Uganda to see the Grace House. We will get all of the information and pictures (I know Americans!) And then we will come home and raise support for the Grace House! It will grow tremendously fast! There is nothing God wants more than to see the his kingdom unfold! Here we are to please you daddy! 

 

Lyle and his family came to Shreveport this weekend, I had forgotten how much I missed having brothers! He was preaching about how our DNA actually makes a song. How God sang over us in creation, and how 2% of us is completely individual DNA, and how we can not step into Gods perfect alignment without walking out your individual lives song that God sang over you and your DNA even is proclaiming! WOW! What a revelation. He also spoke about being individual and calling out your title that Heaven speaks over you. He used the story of Gideon and how the Lord called him a mighty warrior, even though Gideon claimed to be weak. He actually was walking in false humility.  Stop walking in false humility and live up tp what Heaven says about you! That was really great to me. When your feeling low or weak, sing that over yourself, ‘The Lord is with you Mighty Warrior!” The Rick Pino version ROCKS! Its funny because I was stuck on that song for like a week before Lyle came and shared that revelation. There is an army forming of like minded, in one mind and accord people throughout the body of Christ, young and old, multi-cultural, and multi-denominational. 

Yogi tea quote of the day, ‘Live to Share’ 

Seasons.

I just read an archived email from an old friend, that I am not really friends with anymore. 

I had saved the email because when I read it, I was filled with joy..

But today when I read it I almost cried. Earlier in the week I got a phone call 

from a friend that I had totally lost all contact with and even though I was thrilled to 

have heard from him, my heart ached. Funny how emotions are. 

Or maybe it is funny how seasons are... I have this theory that people are 

put into your life to be either eternal friends or seasonal. When you begin a friendship with 

a person you know if they are going to be eternal friends because there is an instant bond. Meaning they are 

automatic besties/siblings. I have only felt this for a few people, I have tried to force it with others and 

it just did not work. I have come to the conclusion that people are put into your life for a certin purpose. 

Like God has a reason for them to be in your life either they will bring you down to make you stronger in the end. Or they will raise you up. Every friend has a purpose. Like Alanis says, "you live you learn!" 

I guess hurt accompanies any great thing. 

Yahweh.. U2 Rocks.

Yahweh, Yahweh
Always pain before a child is born
Yahweh, Yahweh
Why the dark before the dawn

Take this city
A city should be shining on the hill
Take this city if it be your will
What no man can own, no man can take
Take this heart
Take this heart
Take this heart
And make it break

My Anthem.

My Anthem.

Then, turning to his disciples, Jesus said, “That is why I tell you not to worry about everyday life—whether you have enough food to eat or enough clothes to wear. 23 For life is more than food, and your body more than clothing. 24 Look at the ravens. They don’t plant or harvest or store food in barns, for God feeds them. And you are far more valuable to him than any birds! 25 Can all your worries add a single moment to your life? 26 And if worry can’t accomplish a little thing like that, what’s the use of worrying over bigger things?
27 “Look at the lilies and how they grow. They don’t work or make their clothing, yet Solomon in all his glory was not dressed as beautifully as they are. 28 And if God cares so wonderfully for flowers that are here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith?
29 “And don’t be concerned about what to eat and what to drink. Don’t worry about such things. 30 These things dominate the thoughts of unbelievers all over the world, but your Father already knows your needs. 31 Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and he will give you everything you need.
32 “So don’t be afraid, little flock. For it gives your Father great happiness to give you the Kingdom.
33 “Sell your possessions and give to those in need. This will store up treasure for you in heaven! And the purses of heaven never get old or develop holes. Your treasure will be safe; no thief can steal it and no moth can destroy it.
34 Wherever your treasure is, there the desires of your heart will also be.

Rugose

That is my word of the day.. To have many wrinkles.. 

Over the last week I have been thinking about getting old. 

Since hurricane Ike, family has been staying with us. My house 

parents are Ron and Emily, Ron’s mother has Alzheimers. My 

great grandmother died of that, and I see traces of it in my pappy. 

I break that generational curse right now! haha! I see how much that Ron’s Father

still loves Joyce (his wife). He takes care of her like he is taking care of himself. 

I think in the short time that they have been staying with us I have learned what 

it means to truly love someone. I have the best of the best models to aline myself with. 

I live with people that are madly in love with each other, I have never heard my parents fight, both sets of grandparents are married, my four sets of aunties and 

uncles are happily married. I have joked a lot about my family sticking together like a mafia, and people have accused us. But we just understand loyalty and commitment. I have not live through this broken home environment where I was love deprived, or had a bad example of a father, or anything of that matter. I have the best life a person could wish for, but it took me seeing someone giving everything that they are for their love. Ralph Waldo Emerson said, Give all to love, obey thy heart. I have seen that love in action. I know how to love and I know Gods love but how do I fall in love? How do I find an everlasting love that I will not get tired of and they will not get tired of me? I have been thinking about becoming old, and I realized that I do not want to get old. I honestly believe I will not have to go through all the bad stages.. Maranatha Maranatha Lord Jesus! I want to be raptured. But if I do I prayed the other day that I wanted a Sarah anointing, Kings trying to hit on her when she was 90 years old. I want that! I just want someone who will take care of me if I were to get alzheimers. Uncle Jonathan said in marriage concealing  he always asks, “If you got into a wreck on the way to your honeymoon suite and your wife/husband was completely paralyzed, would you stay committed for the rest of your life and take care of her/him?” That is really hard. I do not know if I could do that for any guy I know! God will have to work on me!

Winds of Change. Pt. 1

It has been a cyclone of change that has swept through this country as of the last couple of weeks. I could not help but to wonder when God is going to return. Chaos everywhere, gas prices to high to afford (though Im not complaining because I know we will rule the world for 1k years post-trib... Uncle J), The Winds of change.. We have politicians rant and rave over how they will bring change, but I do not believe any of it. It makes me feel helpless for this world system. I guess I have my head in Heaven. 

I was going to go into this scripture that the lord gave me and what I feel my next step in live is.. But I cannot find the scripture. Haha.. 

ZAO shirts are going to be ready soon if anyone wants to get one let me know!

The Hurrican Evacuee Story.

I got this email that really ticked me off. 

 I will just paste it here:

*Subject:* FW: Shreveport Shelter 

The correspondence below came from a friend's brother who is from 

south La. and it was sent to Bill O'Reilly: 

You that are not from Louisiana do not understand that you can't do 

enough to help these people, the more you do-- the more they expect you to do, 

gimme-gimme-gimme and yes I meant to spell it that way. Volunteers work long hrs and 

they get spit on--yelled at--cursed. 

Hey folks this is just one copy of this letter that a colleague of mine sent to 

the national media. Let me just say that this lady travels the world doing 

medical missions and found Old Sams in S'port _scarrier_ than the 3rd world 

countries she has visited. Just thought you might like to hear what things were 

really like and this letter doesn't even begin to cover it 

Subject: Louisiana Evacuations & Shelters 

Date: Sat, 06 Sep 2008 05:3 1:31 +0000 

Hello Mr. O'Reilly, 

I am a nurse who has just completed working approximately 120 hours as 

the clinic director in a Hurricane Gustav evacuation shelter in Shreveport, 

Louisiana over the last 7 days. I would love to see someone look at the evacuee 

situation from a new perspective. Local and national news channels have covered the evacuation and "horrible" conditions the evacuees had 

to endure during Hurricane Gustav. 

True - some things were not optimal for the evacuation and the shelters need 

some modification. At any point, does anyone address the responsibility (or irresponsibility) of 

the evacuees? 

Does it seem wrong that one would remember their cell phone, charger, cigarettes 

and lighter but forget their child's insulin? 

Is something amiss when an evacuee gets off the bus, walks immediately to the 

medical area, and requests immediate free refills on all medicines for which *they cannot provide a prescription or current bottle (most of which are narcotics)?* 

Isn't the system flawed when an evacuee says they cannot afford a $3 copay for a 

refill that will be delivered to them in the shelter yet they can take a city-provided bus to Wal-mart, buy 5 bottles of Vodka, and return to consume them secretly in the shelter?* 

* 

Is it fair to stop performing luggage checks on incoming evacuees so as not to 

delay the registration process but endanger the volunteer staff and other persons 

with the very realistic truth of drugs, alcohol and weapons being brought into the shelter?* * 

Am I less than compassionate when it frustrates me to scrub emesis from the 

floor near a nauseated child while his mother lies nearby, watching me work 26 

hours straight, not even raising her head from the pillow to comfort her own son?* 

* 

Why does it insense me to hear a man say "I ain't goin' home 'til I get my FEMA 

check", when I would love to just go home and see my daughters who I have only 

seen 3 times this week?* 

Is the system flawed when the privately insured patient must find a way to get 

to the pharmacy, fill his prescription and pay his copay while the FEMA 

declaration allows the uninsured person to acquire free medications under the disaster rules?* 

* 

Does it seem odd that the nurse volunteering at the shelter is paying for childcare while the evacuee sits on a cot during the day as the shelter provides a "day care"?* 

* 

Have government entitlements created this mentality and am I facilitating it with my work? 

Will I be a bad person, merciless nurse or poor Christian if I hesitate to work 

at the next shelter because I have worked for 7 days being called every curse 

word imaginable, felt threatened and feared for my personal safety in the shelter?* 

* 

Exhausted and battered but hopefully pithy,* 

* 

Sherri Hagerhjelm, RN* 

Ok, so I got this email yesterday and it really rankled me. I was irritated at the evacuees but the lady that wrote and then published this letter. I am an agent of love. That’s what we are called to be correct, everyone that believes in the New Testament say Aman! When I read this it made me sick to my stomach. I too was at the shelter volunteering for the Red Cross 12 hour all night shifts when I had a full time job and school to greet me each morning. I too have been over seas, and served in the worst of the worst, the last place was one of the most dangerous slums in East Africa, a Muslim Somalian refugee camp, in the middle of seven prostitute camps. I know bad, I know scary, and I know disgusting. The shelters were not up to out tax dollar standards at all, to say the least. In fact one of the shelters I worked at was shut down by the health department because it was so dirty that the evacuees and volunteers were getting a bacteria that was causing a horrible virus. I know it wasn’t our helpful nurses problem but thankfully Cholera did not break out! I guess that only happens in places that have need.. Not America.. These people should know better than to have need. It kind of upsets me that someone will give so much to these charities that service people all over the world (Keeping in mind I have my own NGO that services kids in East Africa) but we cannot take care of the hurting here, because we feel like they should be able to help themselves. I can honestly tell you that I felt God so much stronger working in that shelter looking into the eyes of Jesus through every hurting person, than I ever would in a fancy church building. Through helping people who are rude to you exercise the Beatitudes! What I reward.. I was cursed at because I could not give away the hundreds of blankets that we had in boxes, to a lady who obviously not getting the fix of crack she was used to. I could give them to the sick elderly, Thank you Jesus. There was excess amount of supplies at the beginning, but when the Jefferson Parish people left we thought we were closing shop. When I got off work that night I found out that they were bussing in over a thousand people to our shelter from Homer, Baton Rouge, and New Orleans. The only thing was that all of the cots were already put up.. So, Richard, Tyna, and I started putting cots up for like 500 people in this one room. I couldn’t physically put the cots up because my body was so exhausted and over worked. So, I recruited the firefighters to help. Its easy being a girl sometimes. We put down all of these cots and then realized that we could not have them out because they were the cots that the Jefferson Parish evacuees had been sleeping on for a week. Most of them had urine or other unknown stains on them. The health department was going to shut us down. Oh God I hope we have enough new cots. Would you feel comfortable sleeping on that? Then Tyna and I get the job of spraying down the old cots with Lysol (which by the way we only had 2 cans of for 800 cots) to make the evacuees that started to flood in more comfortable. Wait lets take a break to say that these people had been told that they were headed home, and never told that they were going to another shelter. Mandatory evacuation really stinks when you do not have enough money to drive somewhere, or you do not have any family to take you in, or you don’t have enough money to stay in a hotel and pay for food all week. To say the least the people that were coming in were tired, scared because there was news that gangs were looting homes in Baton Rouge, Families were separated, people had not been able to take medicine. Tyna almost got hit in the face by a man that had a sever case of schizophrenia who had ran out of his meds. We did not have any ice so our diabetics and people who needed ice to dissolve their pills were out of luck. We did not need bag searches of metal detectors because these people had done nothing except seek refuge by the government because of a natural disaster. There was a shooting outside of the shelter I was working at, but that was not an evacuee, well the evacuee was shot by a Shreveport local being territoria, gang related I guess. As for this nurse complaining about how the people would not leave without checks, which by the way I had a few people ask me but in no way rude, I would ask for compensation if I had to leave my job for over a week to evacuate and I was surviving on 3 jobs to pay my rent, food, and children expenses. I did have a few people come to me crying because they were afraid that they were going to be homeless/evicted like they were when they came back from evacuating Katrina. Being in street ministry I met homeless people from Katrina every week. As far as not feeling safe... if you did not feel safe with the state police, parish police, city police, NATIONAL GUARD with AK-47's, and firefighters EVERYWHERE than you have a problem with paranoia and you should get that checked out. As for the insurance, I guess the people that could afford insurance and medicine had enough money to go to the pharmacy and get it. Are we Marxist? Do we receive according to our need? Not the last time I checked.. The poor get help and the people who have enough money to buy, buy. Is it really that hard? I do not really think it is all fair with the government giving away so much money especially here in Louisiana either, but I know I am a Christian and it is my duty to help and represent the needy. Also, please do not judge thousands of people because of the bad attitudes of a few!

Thank you for volunteering, but if you are going to put God’s name on it, than please give with thanksgiving. What does the word say about giving to people who cant repay you? Please don’t make my Jesus reflect hate. I am very touchy when people give Jesus a bad name. We are the body and it is our call to remain in love. 

Read This!

http://www.irresistiblerevolution.com/ This is a really cool guy! Read his book Irresistible Revolution! I love it. 

You Know You're Southern When...

You know you are southern when you and your uncle have the same Cabella’s tee-shirt on, the only difference being mine was a small and his was an XXL! Or when you’re life is disrupted by a hurricane. I flew home from Austin last night. My first flight was pretty uneventful, besides the fact that I met a really great gal who wants to be involved with ZAO. Oh but then my second flight of fury came. We were flying straight into a category one hurricane. We were not allowed out of our seats, because as the flight attendant said, “We are in an emergency state”. There were several moments of free falling and extreme shaking. People were screaming and crying. The lady in front of me kept yelling profanities and crying holding onto the emergency exit door like she was about to jump out on the wing for safety. It was pretty funny after I repented of every thing and told Jesus that “if I live I live for him and if I die I die for him” and “I’ve already given my life away so it cannot be taken”. I was still shaking really bad though, side affects of being a smoker for such a long time. I was exhausted at work today. I am going up to the Red Cross Evacuee Center at 23:00 to volunteer through the night. Work is really going to suck in the a.m. Its worth it! Faith Tabernacle has really gone out of their way to supply for the 25k plus evacuees that are here in Shreveport. They donated thousands of dollars and supplies. We have had volunteer groups all over the city. Our dance team performed today and we are having church in a center tomorrow! I love being apart of a New Testament Community! I am reading a great book, rather sobering but amazing, called “Why Revival Tarries” by Leonard Ravenhill. I stole it from my dad's collection and it is a copy that is actually from 1959! I recommend it! I just got a few ‘Momma T’ books in today! I am so excited to start them! I had better get a few hours of sleep before I go and work all night!

Who Names the Hurricanes Anyways?!

Who Names the Hurricanes Anyways?
I am in the ATX still and loving it so much, but honestly it has been a little weird for me. Like it is so easy here… What living away from home business about anyways? I guess I am not called to be comfortable and live the life that sounds right. So with that said, I am moving on!
Yesterday the family came over! My nanny got really upset at me because I asked her why she was a republican. She did not really have an answer but she did get upset. Meanwhile I do not even know who I am voting for. Obama’s speech at the democratic National Convention, moved me to tears… LOL.. Obama was showing up as being misspelled, so I clicked to add it and the “correct” spelling was Osama. That is kind of funny. I would vote for him if he was Pro-Life. RON PAUL Revolution!
Saturday morning I went to the Church under the Bridge. A homeless work here in Austin. I was able to see so many friends, it was really awesome. I got my first check for ZAO! That really was exciting for me. I got to meet a lot of new people that is the thing about being a homeless minister, it sucks to get close to them and form relationships because they start camping in another city or they find a better program than you are offering. It sucks when people only come to you for what you can give them… OR wait maybe that is what is so great about the kingdom. You have Gods love and means to give away so that you can receive more and more when you give more and more! Whatever the case there is something so redemptive about giving an old man a kiss on his bald head as he sits in his wheel chair and then you pray for complete healing in his body and heart, and then he starts crying. Or telling a woman, that has been stripped of every ounce of pride, that she is beautiful. That means more to me than anything. I can see God so strongly through people who are completely in need of him. They are nothing, they have nothing, and then only thing that can cure their starvation of spiritual and physical needs is the love for Christ Jesus. My sweet papa provider! The glory fell on that community. I had a holy anxiety and expectancy. I knew something huge was going too happened. Maybe it was just that I got to look straight into Jesus’ eyes like a hundred times! I prayed for every sick person I saw. Easy bait, none of them care! I prayed for a deaf lady put my hands on her ears.. I wanted to do a Heidi Baker, “Bring me the blind” but I did not. No creative miracles. There was a lot of healing for me though. I just wept as I worshipped to my sister playing the piano looking at 6th street. It was truly a Heavenly experience that I would not trade for any grand conference with the highest paid musicians and preachers. It has become so clear to me that all the people need is the Good News and love and the fruits will show. Heidi Baker says she lives by Passion and Compassion. Laid down love for God and her neighbor. I am going to steal that, and coin it as my own life model. Forget all of the other junk and focus on the Gold that Christ left us!
Saturday afternoon I got a pedicure and manicure with my sister. We had a great time being girls. I have pink nails and toenails with rhinestones… I never really thought about Rhinestones being spelled like the Rhine River. My motherland.
The family came over and told me about a friend of the family that was driving drunk and hit a tree with her 15 year old daughter in the car without a seatbelt. She was hurt badly, her spleen is bleeding and a lung punctured, broken bones, and her face is all messed up. Keep her in your prayers and that God have his revenge on the mother.
Church was great today. I was at Starbucks, I turn around and see a childhood-teens best friend. Katie Gable my ultimate running buddy was in the same starbucks with me! I was so excited. She is cool has all of these tattoos and piercings. Oh to be extreme… I love it, I just do not have the nerve! I was so happy to be with my church family! I missed my Uncles preaching though. I was a lazy bum all day. I slept and watched movies. Discovered a really dumb thing about myself, I have never questioned in my mind what “ATF” stood for. I know I haven’t because I would have asked. Thanks to Lord of War I now know it stands for, Alcohol, tobacco, and firearms. So I now know that the “ATF” with their fancy acronym is operated by this Sullivan cat, has five thousand employees, and has a 1 billion dollar budget. Some useless information to store in your pocket for a rainy day! Anyhow, I watched Xman, Lord of wars, and What happens in Vegas. My favorite was what happens in Vegas. SO adorable I was laughing the whole time. It could have been that giddy ‘I am in love with you Ashton’ laugh, inevitably I laughed the entire movie!
I am leaving to go home tomorrow unless Gustav forces me to stay. It is headed straight for Shreveport. All of the New Orleans evacuees are staying in our schools this week. I want to know who gets to name the hurricanes every year. What is that advisory board called? Are those people taken seriously? The names come from the National Hurricane Center and have been since 1953. The names go from A-Z alternating Male/female. Here are all of the names for 2008. Pray none of them hit!
2008 Hurricane Names
Arthur
Bertha
Cristobal
Dolly
Edouard
Fay
Gustav-- JUNK
Ike
Josephine
Kyle
Laura
Marco
Nana
Omar
Paloma
Rene
Sally
Teddy
Vicky
Wilfred

Does anyone remember that Lisa Loeb song, "Beware this woman shes' a hurricane she will steal your heart but she hurting".. maybe I am totally making those words up, but they sound right!

Homeward Bound.

I am ashamed to say that I have just officially made the worst cup of coffee in the whole world! I am supposed to be good at this whole barista thing, I was only one for almost two years…You would think since I mastered the art of a perfect extra-dry cappuccino and the expertise of a red-eye I could make a cup of drip! I guess I have lost the art.
I am in Austin. It feels really great. I am a little taken back with how easy it is here, and the enemy is really ragging on me. I know that I am supposed to be in Shreveport for this season. I was just hanging up my clothes in my closet and it dawned on me that I am going to have to re-pack them in a couple of days.
Yesterday I drove to the airport with Tyna, who is amazing. She text me this morning, and told me that she wanted to spread Gods love to everyone. She has this new grace on her life to love! It is amazing! She will do really great things for the father. Shica baba! I got to the airport and I felt like I was flying out of Entebbe or Addis Ababa Int. It was sketchy and did I mention small. It was a private airport… I talked to an old friend about, ZAO and she was so excited she sincerely wants to do anything she can to help. God is sending me the harvesters. INTERMISSION… I just noticed I got the “Cat Scratch Fever” I actually totally forgot my mom had a giant Persian cat who is satan incarnate. I walked in the door last night and he scared me to death. He just scratched me. Anyways, I was at the airport and my flight got delayed. Gustav is ruining reputation for being right on time. Anyone who knows me knows I live on “African time” all the time! I flew to Dallas, where my plane was also delayed. While there I met the most beautiful man I have ever seen, I think he could have been an Angel from New Jersey. I spotted him but of course was too nervous to talk to him. Finally my love for dunkin donuts and him conveniently standing in between me and my favorite cup of joe, we started talking. I definitely had my flirt coat on... that was so dorky but oh so true! Anyways I got offered a cupcake by this other older gent. I reached Austin giddy like a little girl. We went up to the church, I was so happy to see everyone. The singles had gone to Players, so I headed that way. I felt really loved when I walked in they all started chanting, “Audi..Audi” I love C.our.age a lot. Though I am away from this church, these people, this place I have decided it will always be my home. I was having a conversation with a friend the other day. He was asking me where I called home, because I am always on the move. I told him it is wherever the heart is, or wherever I can give my heart for the Lord Jesus. Although that is true, I feel a special love for Austin. These people are really special to me. I am excited to see my parents today! They were on vacation all week for their 25th Anniversary. How about that for great role models! Well I need to get dressed to go love on Jesus through homeless ministry!
Remain in Love.

"Ms. Audi I told my mom that I am going to give all of my clothes, (except my brand-new school clothes) to the poor."

I teach a ‘tweens’ class on Wednesday nights, and last nights meeting was amazing. I taught on love. That is my heart beat so that is usually all I talk about but I think it finally permeated their thought process. I have had a constant battle against their minds and spirits since I started teaching but finally there was a glimpse of peace! It was all my sweet Yahweh of course! We went through a lot of scriptures on love and I wrote on a black board what love was. Then we listened to a prophecy about Gods love, on the Jonathan Helser CD. The glory fell. The hardest kid to get to was crying and the others were praying and showing holy reverence. The Holy Spirit was not grieved! Then I showed them a clip of "Finger of God" about the underground church in China, to prove a point that young people can really love the Lord with all of their heart, soul, mind, and strength. Then of course I threw in some Heidi Baker, talking about radicle faith and giving everything you have to the poor to follow Christ. There was a sweet spirit in the room that really rejuvenated my spirit if nothing else!
I was just talking to one of my best friends in Uganda, and she was telling me that she is leaving to go to a rainforest/ butterfly and bird sanctuary for her birthday. And we are not talking about Moody Gardens. That is fortunate. Kudos to you for having an amazingly exotic life! Haha..God has really blessed me with a new friend! Last night I realized how thankful I am for Sis. Tyna! I loaned her my favorite book, The Irresistible Revolution, by Shane Claiborne. Read that if you never have. It will make you want to sell everything you own to live for the poor, hate any sort of violence, and you will check every thing you buy to make sure it is made with fair labor.
Hurricane Gustav is headed our way. Kind of freaky since it is the 3 yr. Anniversary for Katrina. We have the authority to speak to the wind, Jesus did, didn’t he?!
I was listening to John Lewis on NPR this morning on my way to Krispy Kreme before work. He is the only of the ten speakers from the Lincoln Memorial, "I have a dream" King rally, that is still alive. Today is the 45th anniversary. He was talking about Barack Obama (how amazing it is that a Black man is the democratic head), and how the King movement was the reason that we were not still drinking from the bitter cup of segregation. I do not know about that.. Here is Louisiana it is still quite segregated. I am always stepping out of "the zone" because it is so far from my thinking that people could actually judge someone because of the color of their skin. Anyhow, Lewis started crying and said, "I though I had cried all of my tears", oh my the waterfalls came and in a hurry! I really appreciate Lou Engle and his calling to repent for the sins of our nation. God forgive us for hating our brothers and for all of the innocent blood shed during slavery and with hate crimes.
I am so excited about going to Austin this weekend! I am due for some family time over Spiderhouse, Claypit, and Barton Springs! I am supposed to go to this Campus Ministries meeting today during lunch.. I will keep you posted!
Quote of the day.. Let me look through "The Blessing of Love" By Mother Teresa...
The work we do is nothing more
than a means of transforming our love for Christ into
something concrete.
The Poor do not need our compassion or our pity,
They need our help.

Destined to Dream of Destin

Destined to Dream of Destin
Sugar grain beaches,
A stunningly christine doorway to the rest of the exotic world.
The temperature stagnate at 80 degrees f.
Its beautiful beaches are a utopia to me.
Almost as exciting as Dinotopia, but for sure a mile behind.
I have a this perfect world in mind, and it is beach-o-centric.
‘Somewhere over the rainbow’ and ‘Big Rock Candy Mountain’ keep going though my mind.
I think if there was ever a place that would have a constant rainbow without any rain,
or gum drops growing off the palms it would be there.
I imagine human size monarchs that never have to be human size caterpillars.
Dolphins ceaselessly jumping out of the water.
Everyone would be dressed in white linen and there would be no pain.
There would be waterfalls to bathe in that sparkled like Swarovski crystals.
and giant already pealed mangos, pineapple, and the passion fruit would all be out of the shell.
There would be painted elephants who did not leave waste.
And packs of wild mustangs that of course were friendly.
The natural springs would taste like perrier.
Where there would be no disgusting smells, taste, textures, sounds, or sights, but at the same
time our senses were enhanced to their full ability.
The wind blowing sounded like the strums of a harp.
And the only weather variation would be when the gold dust would shower.
There is no sickness, so therefore no need for miracles.
Constant Glory.
Groups of people would gather every night and play guitars and djembes and sing to Christ.
Wow.. This is either a Lisa Frank world or my vision of Heaven! And to think I just started with wanting to go to Destin!
I guess you can tell that I do not feel like being stuck in an office all day!

Crazy Contradiction

Crazy Contradiction.
Have you ever not put on a jacket because it did not match your outfit. Pathetic thinking I know, but that was just me.. I was freezing but wanted to look sharp because the defending attorneys were coming in for a deposition! Now they are here so I am warm but very unattractive! I just talked with a guy that traveled with the Grand Ole Opry in the 60's and 70's. He invited me along with my voice and guitar to a bluegrass jam session.. I will be taking him up on that one. Country in not my forte but it would be a lot of fun!
My life as of the last week has been pretty eventful. I started school here in Shreveport. Im only taking 9 hours because I am working full time and I am in nearly every ministry at church. That is more than I planned on taking but since I decided against Mozambique for the Fall, I thought I might as well!
Heidi had some awesome things to say today in, "Compelled by Love".
She talks about how God spoke to her and told her,
"Apostolic is upside Down." Unlike how people are often trying to exalt themselves, the apostolic is the lowest place. Apostolic is a place of laid-down love where we become possessed with the nature of the man Christ Jesus to become a servant of all.
Ayn Rand would be pretty upset with that statement! But nevertheless it is the truth.. Take me lower Lord. Oh great.. Im about to get on my beatitudes soapbox again! I will spare you! I chuckle when people ask me to call them apostle or prophet. Take me still lower God! And that is all I will say!
Im doing my Bible study on love tonight, did you know that ‘love’ is referenced 703x in the Bible, according to biblos.com? Wow, that a lot of love! Maybe it is important in the Christian walk!
I got my new pimp-mobile! It was donated by the church! It is a periwinkle Crown Vic with plush, lazy boy, periwinkle seats to match. Wood paneling, what can I say, except Im a true G. You can catch me swayin’ my wagon, or floatin’ my boat anytime! Emily said it is bigger so that I can pack neighborhood kids in for church! That works.. Man but it is smooth! I don’t know if I will ever go back to a sporty car! I did feel kind of old driving this morning with the heat on (in the dead of summer) listening to National Public Radio while drinking coffee. Call me Granny Audi! Im still trying to name the tank.. Any ideas?

You like-e-de-hubbley-bubbley?

This weekend/beginning of the week was great.. I just erased that because it was so boring. Then I typed it back because it needs to be stated! I feel like a mess, my pants are too tight, my franklin Covey has post-it notes taped all over it, I have 2 starbucks insulated cups empty with straws making my desk look dirty, I have a canker sore and I just drank a pineapple juice... And those are really my only worries! Life is good! I have clothes on my back and an extra pair to give to someone who does not have any.
An old lady in my church donated a car to me this past week! It could not have come at a better time because my Cabrio broke down. I just got the call from the mechanic telling me that my Axel was broken and my steering was about to fall out. I really do not know anything about that stuff..It sounds bad but not as expensive as I though it would be. God is constantly faithful!
Friday night, though raining in a flood, was one of the greatest times I have had in a really long time. I went to this Lebanese Restaurant with Tyna. We talked about our lives and the kingdom of God for hours! Shreveport does not know what it has coming! We were searching for something to do since it was like nine o’ clock and I had probably drank nine cups of coffee! While we were driving down the interstate a truck started driving head-on towards us. We were headed north and there is no possible was to go south on this road, he would have to exit north and turn around and get on another highway... We called to police! He could have killed someone! Anyways, we stumbled on a James Burton Guitar Festival. It was so much fun! We were the only young people really, so as you can imagine we got a lot of attention! It was a clean explosion of fun all packed in one night! Saturday Tyna and I went to look for apartments and got sick of the torrential rain fall, so we went to what we thought was a $1 theater.. Too bad it is just a really old and crappy theater that shows ‘already on VHS’ shows for the same price as regular theaters.. And they are not classics. I would pay to watch "A creature from the blue lagoon" in 3D for that price..not Wanted..Do not watch that horrible movie.. Save yourself from 2 hours of torture. Who ever thought wind surfing your fathers corpse out of a train that was derailed in a huge canyon was the cool thing to do. I thought it was a horrible and dirty flick. I left the movie only to find that my car was broken, but it is okay because once I got home I was greeted with the rich smells of Greek food. A wonderful lady from our family community decided that she wanted to cook for my Auntie to continue her two week birthday celebration! Basically we ate, played instruments, and talked all night. Sunday was a wonderful day to minister to my Jesus! Bishop Fuller delivered an awesome message about how Christ does not throw out the broken reeds. That would be a message to me, the president of Team Prodical! We continued to manifest glory by shifting the fellowship to a locally owned Mexican restaurant. After stuffing myself with food that makes me sick every time I eat it, I went to the Robinson Film Center. I have finally found the underground arts culture of Shreveport! I am even trying to get into an apartment loft building which is reserved for Artist only! I will keep you posted on how that goes! I watched, "The Unforseen Truth" it is a documentary about Barton Springs. It was really great. It made me wonder which side of the argument I am on. The environmentalist or the Capitalist. Do you ever have things that you love and are passionate about but there is an continual debate going on about it and you do not know where you stand? That is where I am with the Barton Springs debate. I love the springs dearly but I see where it should not be a reason that people cannot build homes. It was quite scary to see how much the water has been polluted since 1996. It is sad to think it will not be safe for the next generation to swim in. Moving off of that... Sunday night we had a band from a local church come and rock out for our youth group! It was trance like for me, I really like when worship is in state of ecstacy like that. Sunday night was concluded with Sushi and coldstone with the band, and then getting locked out of my house! It all worked out for the best! Thank you Jesus for an awesome weekend.

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The Mornings and my Equilibrium

I am going to try to start writing a little daily journal entry.

Myself
have to live with myself, and so, I want to be fit for myself to know; I want to be able as days go by, Always to look myself straight in the eye; I don't want to stand with the setting sun And hate myself for the things I've done. I don't want to keep on a closet shelf A lot of secrets about myself, And fool myself as I come and go Into thinking that nobody else will know The kind of man I really am; I don't want to dress myself up in sham. I want to deserve all men's respect; But here in this struggle for fame and pelf, I want to be able to like myself. I don't want to think as I come and go That I'm for bluster and bluff and empty show. I never can hide myself from me, I see what others may never see, I know what others may never know, I never can fool myself -- and so, Whatever happens, I want to be Self-respecting and conscience free.


The Mornings and my Equilibrium
I shot out of bed this morning in fear that I was late to work but low and behold it was only 23:07, and then again at 3, and then at 4:36, 5:24, and then finally at 6:15! I sprung out of bed because my hair was a mass of wash but not styled frizz and I had to make myself look presentable, but too bad I stood up too fast! I stood up and then fell completely on the ground! Haha.. Does that happen to normal people?! Things like that always happen to me, and what makes it worst is when I tell people these stories they always reply with, "Haha... that would only happen to you, and I can totally see you doing that!" . Well I guess if I am not known for anything else on this short trip to earth I can be labeled as, "the girl who was challenged by gravity but had an expounding grace to her fall." There has to be an ancient Comanche name for that..I think you would have had to be a Frederick nerd as a child to get that! Or were other kids obsessed with Native Americans? My sister was the bigger nerd although I was not too far behind her! We had all the books, the costumes, the wars with homemade weapons. Life was perfect on the reserve for sis and me. Thinking about childhood you realize how many stages we go through in our lives! I am the queen of change. Those who know me well know that I am more happy on the go, and I live by change being the only constant. Hopefully that can be incorporate into the kingdom somehow! Then for the spectators of my life they see a free bird with no hope for commitment or submission, and defiantly no respect for the American dream. That probably is a little true but in my mind evolution is has done pretty good so far! I am constantly changing because I that is what I am in the Body of Christ. You know I really dislike it when I am drinking coffee and I get a grind in my mouth.. I just started gagging! Haha.. I also just got a call from a fellow Texan trying to go to school in Louisiana and we realized how expensive it is for out of state residency. That sucks since the state line is about thirty minutes away. But my state of stress ended when my boss just walked up to my desk and gave me a really cute bracelet that she bought for me!
I honestly do not have too much to say today, yet! Everyone needs to read, Compelled by Love, By Heidi Baker. I cry every time I open it up. Lately, I have been crying so much when I read. Yesterday I sat in taco Bell and cried while reading this book! I guess when you are in agreement with your destiny your spirit is moved. Like when you talk to someone with a kindred spirit and you manifest glory!
My Quote for the day:
Say little,
and love much,
Give all,
Judge no man,
Aspire to all that is pure.
–White Eagle.

The Back-Up Plan Culture

The Back-Up plan Culture.
I will no longer be a slave to the back-up plan culture. The culture that says that you have to have a back-up plan just in case God does not follow through with his promises. The thought process that claims that the king of kings is dead and untrustworthy. I put my foot down on trying to satisfy other peoples desires for my life on earth. Say its 100 years here, if you’re lucky and Trillions of years in Heaven. Rolland Baker talks about living a "Sermon on the Mount Lifestyle" do you understand the complexity of that? I did not until I started seeking what that really meant. I looked up the Beatitudes in Wikipedia, because I look up everything there! It this is one of the things that upset me,
The Beatitudes do not describe many separate individuals, but rather all the specific characteristics each must have to experience heaven. Biblical scholar and author Andrej Kodjak has stated that this opening of the sermon was designed to shock the audience as a deliberate inversion of standard values, but this shock value has been lost today due to the commonness of the text.[1]
The shock has left because of the commonness. The fact is that this is the constitution of what Christians are, and it has become so watered down that people actually think that God did not really mean it for everyone!
So, with this stated, I make a vow to God and the world that I will not have a back up plan.. If I live I live for you, Jesus. I do not care about becoming an outstanding member of society, or as rich as an oil tycoon in the U.A.E., or to have a degree in a frame on the wall, or having a house with a picket fence and four little boys. It is all up to God. I give my life to the cause of love. I am a firm believer that love is the pillar of a life in line with Christ. Now people can argue the fact that in the kingdom we are supposed to be the dominators. Take the Church, family, government, education, media, and arts over. And we are supposed to be the wealthiest people to Earth. I agree with that, completely. Christians are usually taught the escape route (how to make it to Heaven) and Muslims are taught to take over the world. I think we are put on the Earth for a divine reason to bring the kingdom of God to Earth, but in doing this are we becoming poor in spirit? What I am saying is that I am not going to condemn anyone for not selling everything that they own and giving it to the poor. Just make sure that you completely trust God for everything, because the healthy do not need a doctor. Never think you can do anything without him. If you decide to give your life to the ‘Sermon on the Mount lifestyle’ remember that you cannot have any trust issues with God. Give him your life and do not be an "Indian-giver" about it, and remember that it is all backwards in the kingdom!

News from Kentucky!

I am going to try to start writing a blog at least once a week, so we will see how that goes!

My life as I know it has been a little different lately! I have changed a lot in this time of just getting away from normal life as I usually know. I have had a lot of quiet times just to figure out who I am, and at times that makes you question who you are even more. This separation has been the most perfect thing for me! The last couple of weeks have been very uneventful! Besides the fact that I got into a car accident a few weeks ago in Nashville! I was in Nashville going to the destiny Conference that was amazing! Bro. Phil Brasfield and his sweet wife were such a great inspiration. I got to be apart of a live recording with John Ragsdale! That was a blast! I was able to talk to Anthony Skinner! Lineal Cooley prayed over Lyle and me imparting the fire of revival on us! That was awesome since he was the worship leader at the Brownsville Revival! Anyways all of that was so amazing! During the week I just come up to the church and pray! Yay! I had the youth girls over two weeks ago for Bible study and spa night! That was a blast even though they wore me out! I have really started to love these people so much! Lyle and me helped a lady move last week! Haha.. Honestly not too many super exciting things have been happening! This past weekend was AMAZING! Friday night we had Japanese with my newly adopted mom and dad, Jeff and Melissa Phillips! Then Saturday I got my hair cut! Later that night I went over to the Phillips to have dinner with the Ragsdales and a really sweet family from the church! It was so nice we ate and ate and ate, then played baggo, and then sang! It was great! Sunday morning services were great. There were a lot of people who came up for prayer and John moved in the prophetic! There were a few people who got baptized. After 2nd service we went to Moonlight bar-b-que! It is a world renowned place where presidents like to go! It was really amazing! I enjoyed it maybe a little too much! Then we went straight to Henderson, KY, which is really close to Indiana to go to hear John Ragsdale again. It was really crazy because I totally did not want to go because I was not feeling well. My life was changed forever after last night, I'm glad I went!! John was speaking about the fire of revival and how the fire should consume us, and how the way we play church is not working and God does not want religion. Its crazy how so many people can be feeling the same way and speaking the same things without even talking to one another about it! I guess that is the Holy Spirit letting us know what he is up to right now! KINGDOM KINGDOM KINGDOM!! I guess it has been all about the kingdom since Jesus came to Earth, but now we are finally realizing that it is the only to get God to come back! Well I got a major touch! I got prophesied over several times! Kristen Ragsdale was prophesying over me and said that that night was going to change my life forever and that I was going to be catapulted into my destiny! There were so many confirming words that just made my cup run over! I am really excited about what is to come not only in my last two weeks here in Kentucky but the rest of my life. God has really been dealing with me about not discounting my God given destiny. Don’t cheat God of what he has given you! Enlarge the Kingdom everyday! I have been reading in Isaiah and Jeremiah how God wanted to have mercy on his people but they were being religious and not really having a relationship with him, they were being racist, not caring for the orphan and widow, and falsely accusing people of crimes (I took that as judging people). Don’t grieve the Holy Spirit by doing those things, but instead enlarge your faith and walk like Jesus walked!

This Wednesday we are taking the youth up into the mountains! We have a 10,000 sq. ft (I think) house rented! There is an indoor pool, theater room with chairs that vibrate, arcade, and it sleeps 60 people! It is going to be really great! We are going to have Bible studies but mostly just letting the kids be in a clean atmosphere to have tons of fun! I am excited!!!

Prayer: give us fresh revelation, new wine-skins, let your Gold oil of love and anointing flow on me and change every habit that I have formed, forgive me for the way I have done things in my religious ignorance, and completely possess me Jesus!

Going about my Fathers Business!

Going about my Father’s Business

“The Kingdom of Heaven is at hand. Heal the sick, raise the dead, cleanse the lepers, cast out demons. You receive without paying; give without pay.”
-Matthew 10:7
Daddy, lover of my Soul, my strong tower, my refuge, best friend, my everything, I give you all honor. I love you so much, I love you, I love you because you have saved me with your wonderful grace. I love you because you have filled me with love to love you with. You are so perfect mighty king. You are so beautiful, I love everything about you, and I would not change a thing about you. I only want more of you. More of your love, more of your joy, more of your peace, more of your power. Papa, I ask you to increase your abounding love. Let there be an explosion of your spirit that reaches every person on this Earth. Give me supernatural help in the realm of love. God, let every aspect of my life be in perfect line with your word, both spoken and written. I want to be completely submitted to your leadership. I put complete trust in you. I will never question you! Daddy, let the spirit of Acts 2 infiltrate my world, my house of prayer, my heart. Let the thunder of you power shake religious foundations, shake our hearts, wake up this generation. I cry out for this generation for understanding, intimacy, and love. Let there be a revolution of love. An explosion of your love that will break every paradigm that is not of you. Give me an experience of your love, fill me so much that it starts to flow from me onto every person that I come in contact with. I ask you for the “more than” and the “other than”.. Only more of you! Release throne room encounters, visions, and dreams. Daddy, let the brightness of your face touch my human spirit. I ask for sounds, voices, and ideas from the Throne Room would totally shake me in your Glory! Let the glory be on me constantly, let me live in it. Send a glory cloud to every assembly. Let me have a new resolve of the Holy Spirit. I contend for signs, miracles, grace, quickening of the Spirit, fire, drunken glory, joy, LOVE, peace, and all of the things that you have promised in your word! God, I give you my whole heart, everything that I am is for your delight. Establish my heart, and make me new. I crucify my flesh and ask for repentance. I ask you for a new dimension of your holiness. Let me be structured out of your holiness. Make me blameless in holiness, with no compromise. ESTABLISH MY HEART! Let the lightning and thunder strike from your Throne Room into my heart. Give me more! You are my heart’s desire. I want your heartbeat, I want your eyes, I want your ears. Let me know the activity of your spirit. You are the God of acts. You are so perfect! I stand in the gap between your great desire and our great need. Give me above and beyond what I ask of even can think. I believe you hear me, and will answer my prayers because I am in agreement with your word. Reveal the miracle of your love, and the liberty of your holiness. Thank you savior! I love you so much more than anything. Amen!

Ok, I wrote out that prayer because I wanted to get some agreement on the things I am feeling! Now, this is a really great prayer that I found in the Bible. It is a great prayer for spiritual growth through love.
Ephesians 3:14-21
When I think of all you have done I fall to my knees to praise you, creator of everything on Earth and in Heaven. I pray that from your glorious, unlimited resources, you will empower me with inner strength through your spirit. Then make your home in my heart because I trust you. Let my roots grow deep in your love and keep me strong in your love. Give the power to understand, as everyone should, how long, how high, and how deep your love is. Let me experience the love of Christ, though it is too grand to understand. Give me understanding. Then make me complete with all the fullness of life and the power that comes from you. Glory to God who is able! Through your mighty power at work within me, to accomplish infinitely more than I might ask or think. Glory to him in the church and in Christ Jesus through generations forever and ever! Amen!
Wow, now if you are still reading I am blessed to have you as a friend, because either you really love me or the better you really love Jesus!
Ok, the reason for this blog is to explain what is happening in my life. God is constantly giving me new revelation, so my life changes every week, but this will be a constant thing. I am moving to Kentucky! I was going to go to Kentucky for a month and then go to Mozambique, Africa, to do a missions school with Heidi Baker for 3 months. I am not going to do that until October. Well actually I am not going to put Gods work on a time line. So… whenever god wants me to go I will go. I know that I do not need to go now! It was confirmed because my friend that was going with me did not know that I had decided to go in October, and I was feeling bad because I was thinking that I was going to have to look at pictures while he was over there and I was here in the states. God takes care of his little girl. I’m a little spoiled with favor! Haha..the cool thing is that every child of the King is his favorite, just some ask for more. I am one of those annoying kids who ask for EVERYTHING! I always want more, because I am only satisfied with all of him and that will keep me seeking viciously for the rest of my life. Anyways, Lyle told me a few days later that he was going to wait till October to go to Iris Ministries in Mozambique. Yay God! You’re so cool Pops! Anyhow, I’m moving to Kentucky to help out Promise Land, Calhoun, Ky! I will be living by myself, which will be great! A lot of time to constantly be in communion with God. P.s. you should think about taking communion every day. See what God says to you about that! Not to make it a religious ritual, but to constantly be full of him! WoW! I do not know how long I am going to stay in Kentucky, but when God says I’ve been there long enough I am going to go to Shreveport, Louisiana with my Uncle and auntie Suber. I am going to help them. A friend recently prophesied over me that I was made to travel around and build up small places, and then a few days later this grand plan is unveiled! I’m standing on his promises! Haha.. I am getting holy laughter just thinking about how great God is! Haha! I was really hesitant about writing about me moving for one, and then what God is doing in my life, because I did not want people to think I am crazy. I honestly don’t really care though. I am a laid down lover of the king and I will do anything to please him, regardless of what people say, or what society labels as “practical”... Every bit of “logic”, understanding, wisdom, etc. is coming from the grand creator of plans! I trust him! Anywho… my life has really dramatically changed. I have never been happier, full of so much joy, and love. I feel complete! Not satisfied, just complete! I know the key to ultimate joy! Honestly, listen to me! It is achieved through an experience of God’s abounding love. I had my first encounter with God’s love a few months ago. It totally messed me up, because I was not mentally prepared for it. My heart was in the right place, but I did not understand how to reject negativity and turn it into love! Haha! Patricia King gave me a trick to do to people that hurt me, get a picture of them and smile at it and tell it “I love you so much” everyday. It trains your mind to love the people that hurt you so badly! Great key! This year has been a tsunami of the change in the spirit for me. I brought the year in with The Call. I was screaming freedom when the clock hit 12! So…you can only imagine. I came back to reality but with a new flame burning deep. January was full of prayer and fasting. I didn’t understand why I kept feeling like I was hitting a glass ceiling, but I was and it was driving me crazy! February was started off at a prophetic conference. I got anointed be Keith Miller! But I was in the midst of all of these people who operate in this realm that was completely foreign to me, but was everything that I wanted. I felt the Glory so strongly for the first time in years after that conference. The night that the glory came on me, I experienced God’s Love, and it was an actual tangible feeling. Like a warmth and electricity throughout my entire body. After that I was really messed up. It’s like I started seeing things the way God see’s them. I do not think I was matured enough for that, and it kind of made me a little sour about religion and people. That okay to a point. Now, I still cannot tolerate fake people or religion but I can look at them through love and the way God sees them. He sees everyone at their highest potential all the time! Also, so many people that are bound to religion do not even realize that they are trapped. The power of his love is so transforming. February and March were tough… BUT April wow… has been blissful! Perfect love!!!! So, I went to Alabama to, The Call. It was great! I got to attend it with my best friends, including Becky, a roommate/sister from Christian Life College. I am so blessed to have such great people in my life! Anyways totally transformed by freedom, love, and liberty I got from worshipping in agreement with thousands or other people. Anyhow, we had to leave the Call early and my spiritual advisor told me that I needed to claim a 7x blessing for the blessing I missed at the last of the call. At the Call you intercede and fast for 10 hours and then the last 2 just worshipping. I had to miss the last two, so I was that spoiled kid who said “Daddy I want what the other kids got plus a lot more!” haha! I got a lot more! That Sunday was the freest service that I had ever been in. There were healings and just joyous love for my papa with no agenda! I loved it so much! My week in Kentucky was so great for me. I changed a lot honestly. You say that is impossible, believe what you want but I got wacky! I am almost that crazy woman at prophetic circles that has the banners and flags! Haha.. not really! I just got to really spend time with Jesus to figure out just how much he loves me. I really found out! One night I got so drunk in the glory that Cait, Lyle, and I just laid in a wheat field and got full of the glory. Now, it cannot be held in. that is why I wrote this insanely long blog, because I want everyone to know, like “yada” the father. Treat him like he is your husband, your first love, your only desire and he will totally take over your life through love! And WOW what an adventure loving him is! Beware this experience of love will totally change the way you see life, people, your goals, your dreams, your present state, and will give you new convictions. It’s great… the most fulfilling thing in life. And it will give you complete and utter joy! I don’t know why I feel like writing this, but maybe someone who reads this will need to remember what true undefiled religion is. Well according to James 1:27,
Religion that is pure and undefiled before God, the father, is this: to visit the orphans and the widows in their affliction, and to keep oneself unstained from the world. Here are some other great scriptures on love and responsibility of loving like Jesus loves so that we can become more like him!!
My favorite Scriptures this month:

Mt. 10:42
“And whoever gives one of these little ones even a cup of cold water because he is a disciple; truly, I say to you, he will by no means lose his reward!”
Mt. 18:5-6
“whosoever receives one such child in my name receives me, but whosoever causes one of these little ones who believe in me to sin it would be better for him to have a great millstone fastened around his neck and to be drowned to the depth of the sea.”
Mt. 22:37-40
“You shall love the Lord with all your heart soul and all your mind. This is the great commandment. And a second is like it: You shall love your neighbor as yourself. On these two commandments depend all the law and the prophets.”
Mt. 25:40—see vs. 45 also.
“And the King will answer them, ‘truly, I say to you, as you did it to one of the least of these my brothers, you did it to me.”
Mark 4:26
“The Kingdom of God is if a man should scatter seed on the ground. He sleeps and rises night and day, and the seed sprouts and grows; he knows not how. The earth produces by itself, first the blade, then the ear, then the full grain in the ear. But when the grain is ripe, at once he puts in the sickle, because the harvest has come.”
Mark 16:12
“Go ye unto all the world and proclaim the gospel to the whole creation. Whosoever believes and is baptized will be saved, but whosoever does not believe will be condemned. And these signs will accompany those who believe: in my name they will cast out demons; they will speak in the new tongues; they will pick up serpents with their hands; and if they drink any deadly poison, it will not hurt them; they will lay their hands on the sick, and they will recover!”
WOW!
Luke 10:25… read it.
Luke 14:12
“When you give a dinner or banquets do not invite your friends or your brothers or your relatives or rich neighbors, lest they also invite you in return and you will be repaid. But when you give a feast, invite the poor, the crippled, the lame, the blind, and you will be blessed, because they cannot repay you. You will be repaid at the resurrection of the just.”
I John 4:7-21—the whole chapter! Actually the whole book of I John has been a total filet minion for me!
John 6:35
“I am the bread of life whoever comes to me shall not hunger, and whosoever believes in me shall never thirst. But I said to you that you have seen me and yet do not believe. All that the Father gives me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never cast out. For I have come down from Heaven, not to do my own will, but the will of him who sent me. And this is the will of him who sent me, that I should lose nothing of all that he has given me, but raise it up on the last day, For this is the will of my Father, that everyone who looks on the Son and believes in him should have eternal life, and I will raise up on the last day.
John 14:18
“I will not leave you like orphans; I will come to you. Yet a little while and the world will see me no more, but you will see me. Because I live, you also will live. In that day you will know that I am in my Father and you in me, and I in you. Whoever has my commandments and keeps them, he it is who loves me, And he who loves me will be loved by my father, and I will love him and manifest myself to him.
John 15:9
As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Abide in my love. If you keep my commandments, you will abide in my love, just as I have kept my Father’s commandments and abide in his love.
All of Acts 2
II Cor. 12:9
“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weakness, so that the power of Christ may rest on me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weakness, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak I am strong.
Galatians 2: 20
I have been crucified with Christ, it is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.
Galatians 5:6
For in Christ Jesus neither circumcision nor uncircumcision counts for anything, but only faith working through love.

Galatians 5:22
But the fruits of the Spirit are LOVE, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control: against such things there is no law.

--Luke 17:21 Is really great!
I Peter 1:8
Though you have not seen him, you love him. Though you do not now see him, you believe in him and rejoice with the joy that is inexpressible and filled with glory.
I John 3:16
By this we know love that he laid down his life for us, and we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers.
I cor. 2:9
“What no eye has seen, nor ear heard, nor the heart of man imagined, what God has prepared for those who love him.”