God Grant me the Serenity..

Oh God grant me the serenity to accept the things that I cannot changeThe courage to change the things that I canThe wisdom to know the differenceOh ooh and God give me the courage to love with an open heart,I think my problem is that I am not doing anything that I am used to. I get in these weird routines. I need to change my out look on living here, and not being around my friends. THAT IS SOOO HARD, especially when I lived on campus last year, and I was totally surrounded.. and even got totally tired of my friends. I know that Paradise is in your mind, and I have the power to totally change anything you are going through. I have to apply this principle to my life. I just want to do God's will. I do not belong at the church that I "attend" (twice since I have been home). I really want to be totally involved in a church/ministry. I can change that soon.

John Mayer and Sheryl Crow!!
I went to john Mayer and Sheryl Crow this past friday! It was so awesome, but almost as awesome as me getting there.. It was really awesome, I was working and hearing them practice all day, I work across the street from the amiptheatre. I was so depressed, because I knew I was not going to be able to go. After work I drove over to the theatre just to make sure that they were sold out. After I pulled up this sketchy lady drove up behind me. She asked me where the parking was and I told her, she also asked if they were letting people in for the sound check, and I had no idea.. She asked me what I was doing there and I told her that I was wanting tickets but i thought they were all sold out. She says well here you can have one of my tickets.. She flippin' gave me an awesome ticket.. A great box seat! I was pretty much happy and loving this woman. I hugged her and told her that I loved her. It was sooooo wonderful. Sheryl crow is my hero! She is so little but so powerful! She is an great musician. I hated John mayer before that concert, and now I am in love. I got to meet his band afterwards. John really amazed me!! Inspired me to cut off my long beautiful solars to be just like Sheryl! haha.. Saturday I went to work And then I went to Austin. It was a great time. I got to see my baby! I really love that man! We had a family party! It was a fun time.. I got to see Meggie and Jeffie! I have not seen them in such a long time. It was so wonderful~ I can not wait to move up there!

THE CRUISE: Jamaica, Cayman, and COZUMEL!! and love and happiness and saddness

I just got back from a Caribbean Cruise with the family! It was sooo much fun! We went to Jamaica, Grand Cayman, and Cozumel!! Cozumel was defiantly my favorite by far. It was a great time. I got to spend so much time with Justin, and totally did not get tired of him, contrary to what everyone thought. We had a little routine worked out for the ship days. We would wake up; I would eat breakfast and talk to all of the Indians in Hindi. By the way was a hightlight of my trip. There were Indians everywhere!! Then I would go and wake the Justin up. Usually after that I would go out on the deck and lay out. Around 2 or 3 justin would go work out and at 3 I would go to tea. It was wonderful, there was a trio that played everyday. They were really great musicians. After tea most days I would sit out on a deck where hardly anyone was and I would read and sleep for a couple of hours. Then when Justin was done working out, so I would do something with him until it was time to get dressed for dinner. Haha… by the way I got jealous for the first time in my life over a guy. Soooo many girls were checking him out, and giving me hate looks because I was the one taking him home. You should have seen it. I was kind of disgraced by the way these girls would look at him. Oh well I would just laugh and kiss him when I was feeling jealous. It is so weird because I have never been a jealous person, but with him it is not that I get mad or upset, but it defiantly puts my in defensive mode. I don' t know why, because I know that he wants me.. I need to get used to it because I guess it is a great sign when every woman that you pass eye rapes your boyfriend.. I've got something going right! Hahaha… Anyways, Dinner was a fun time, because all of the wonderful food. The main chef was Indian so I got some great Indian entrees. After dinner we would either go to a show, we would always listen to music in some way.. or gamble with nanny just watching b/c Justin would not let me… grrr! Then we would conclude the night falling asleep watching movies. Jamaica reminded me of India a lot. I guess when you have seen one third world country you have seen them all.. That was a lie, but the buildings look a lot a like, but of course it is missing the whole culture. Actually all of the shops were owned by Indians. I just had to talk to every Indian that I saw, and I enjoyed it! Jamaica was not that fun because everyone was GROUCHY! I think I was being a brat to Justin and kind of felt bad later. We went to Margaritaville, and I was not hungry so I went down to a different level away from the family. I sat at the bar to listen to a reggae band because there were no tables available. I had more Jamaican men hit on me than was healthy. The bar tender kept asking to buy my drinks and I said no so he just gave me one of the Margaritaville cups. Then another guy just bought me a margarita and brought it to me in front of the whole family. I was kind of embarrassed, and gave it to pappy! We went to a private beach, shopped. Oh, I found a commodore friend. I sat with this old old guy and had him play and sing Bob Marley songs for a really long time. It was so much fun I sang with him every song that I knew! Then it was time to go so we picked up these women who braided all of the women's hair… well, except for Darla and Nanny. It was so much fun because the women were Christian and the whole time we were braided we were singing church songs.
The next port was The Grand Cayman Islands. It was nice, but not all that I expected. I guess I could not get the full potential of the Caribbean blue skies= blue ocean, because it was storming. Never the less, we went snorkeling. It was a great time. I kept on swimming really far away from the group and freaking myself out. Flippers really take you a lot farther than feet . We really did not stay on the Island too long because Sis. Howard and I were really sick with congestion and throat. We also had to be on the boat at 4pm.
The Grand finale was in Cozumel! It was more than wonderful! I loved it so much. Justin, Dev, BB, and I rented mopeds. It was such a great time! We coasted through a rural area with the beach on our side and our worries far away. In Jamaica they taught us a word, "Irie" It means no worries! Great word to explain my mexico trip. We met the rest of the family at Paradise beach. While we were there Justin, Bro. Howard, and I went horseback riding. It was so exhilarating just to be apart of a force. I love riding horses, because you are in control to an extent, but once you start to let the mare fun freely, there is no control. Nature is in control, it almost feels like you are moving with the air. I really didn't get to ride like that too much. I was able to run on the beach for a while. I wish I could have gone off by myself and ran until the horse was exhausted and I was bow-legged for a week! I must have horses someday, but I do not want to have to take care of them, just ride them everyday! After we rode we went snorkeling. That was a very fun reef filled time. I enjoyed it so much more than in the Cayman. We ate quesadillas and swam for the rest of the day. Justin swam in his underware.. haha it was kind of funny. OMG! I forgot to tell you about the mans butt that I grabbed in the Cayman. I was snorkeling and I saw a guy underwater, and I truly thought that it was Jdawg. So, I grabbed a handful of bootie and to my surprise the guy "Justin" leapt out of the water yelling. Haha.. I surfaced and started apologizing. I felt like a dork, but just a little spice for life I guess… you cant live without it! Back to Cozumel, while trying to return the mopeds we got lost in the town, that was a real treat since none of us are fluent in Spanish! That was a little adventure…
Saturday, we were on the ship and a lady jumped from the 11th story deck trying to commit suicide. She made it to the 6th story deck. The ship crew did not know what to do with her body so they left her on the deck for a while. People from our party saw her. They said it was like a movies. It was really sad. Bro. Howard talked to the husband. It was a sad time especially since I had seen her all week celebrating life with her husband. She seemed happy… God rest her soul and help her family
I can not wait for the next cruise!!
GOD BLESS

In the Airport again...

In the airport again.. I just cant wait to be in the airport again Here I am bored sitting in the ghetto Oakland airport listening to Neil Young! That can be wonderful but depressing. Wonderful because Neil Young is a sensation and I am in an airport, but the depressing side is that I am going home to The Woodlands and Neil can be kind of depressing at times.. Listen you will see what I mean! Okay, I am leaving California for a while. I do not know when I will make this strenuous move again. I am sure I will live here again, but not for a while.
So the wedding and wedding parties! To start off the wedding was beautiful, wonderful, and so sweet! I was really surprised how wonderful it turned out. Thursday we Fredericks went to the church and worked all day decorating for the wedding. It was an all day affair. We left and had about thirty minutes to get dressed for the rehearsal dinner. Andrea and I rushed around and made it to the dinner about an hour late! That is fashionable or just straight late! The dinner was nice. It was BBQ so I really did not eat anything, but the socializing was a blast. Later that night all of the bridesmaids and I went to Nickys house for Nells last night with the girls! We had a greatCRAZY, yet still clean time. Well we got home way too late, and had to wake up way too early! We went to the church early that morning and stayed till really late that night!! The girls arrived way too late, and expected me to fix everyones hair. That did not happen. I had to have help, and the hair did not turn out the way I intended, but I tried What can I say except, I came I tried and I conquered! Okay I know I am wearing that phrase out, but it is just soooooo much fun, and I can not help it. The bliss of those fateful words! The wedding was beautiful. Everyone in the party cried I think. I almost cried, because it made me want to The flight attendant has a Huge butt! Oakland is extremely ghetto. The attendant was just telling me about the flight prior to this one. He said that there were two drunken men throwing beer cans at each other. The crew said that the Oakland crowd is always sketchy! They said that southwest has a deal that goes to Las Vegas every Thursday. The attendants call it Hooker Thursday, and they have had to tell the women to put more clothing on. That is crazy insane in the membrane. I am on the same flight with Kristens (from CLC) parents. How ironic is that Probably not to ironic since I am flying from a port close to Stockton. Anyhow.. School started today, and I am really excited to get back into the grand scheme of things. Today I went to an International relations school in Monterrey. I would love to go eventually. We will see what crazy turns that life throws at me. Who knows where I will be in 4 or 5 years. Me and my ADD lifestyle! I really want to go back to India soon, and if I want to go to an International Relations school that will be very important. An International charity program looks great on the transcript! Believe me that it is not the only reason I want to do it! That is my heart, my passion is to serve God, and doing his work is exercising that passion!