New York For Christmas

I went to NYC with Justin and the family! It was so awesome. You know I can not do the city maybe once a year. I loved the different cultures so much! We spent Christmas at Rock-a-feller. We went everywhere and did everything, and ate more cheesecake than should be allowed in a lifetime.

God Grant me the Serenity..

Oh God grant me the serenity to accept the things that I cannot changeThe courage to change the things that I canThe wisdom to know the differenceOh ooh and God give me the courage to love with an open heart,I think my problem is that I am not doing anything that I am used to. I get in these weird routines. I need to change my out look on living here, and not being around my friends. THAT IS SOOO HARD, especially when I lived on campus last year, and I was totally surrounded.. and even got totally tired of my friends. I know that Paradise is in your mind, and I have the power to totally change anything you are going through. I have to apply this principle to my life. I just want to do God's will. I do not belong at the church that I "attend" (twice since I have been home). I really want to be totally involved in a church/ministry. I can change that soon.

John Mayer and Sheryl Crow!!
I went to john Mayer and Sheryl Crow this past friday! It was so awesome, but almost as awesome as me getting there.. It was really awesome, I was working and hearing them practice all day, I work across the street from the amiptheatre. I was so depressed, because I knew I was not going to be able to go. After work I drove over to the theatre just to make sure that they were sold out. After I pulled up this sketchy lady drove up behind me. She asked me where the parking was and I told her, she also asked if they were letting people in for the sound check, and I had no idea.. She asked me what I was doing there and I told her that I was wanting tickets but i thought they were all sold out. She says well here you can have one of my tickets.. She flippin' gave me an awesome ticket.. A great box seat! I was pretty much happy and loving this woman. I hugged her and told her that I loved her. It was sooooo wonderful. Sheryl crow is my hero! She is so little but so powerful! She is an great musician. I hated John mayer before that concert, and now I am in love. I got to meet his band afterwards. John really amazed me!! Inspired me to cut off my long beautiful solars to be just like Sheryl! haha.. Saturday I went to work And then I went to Austin. It was a great time. I got to see my baby! I really love that man! We had a family party! It was a fun time.. I got to see Meggie and Jeffie! I have not seen them in such a long time. It was so wonderful~ I can not wait to move up there!

THE CRUISE: Jamaica, Cayman, and COZUMEL!! and love and happiness and saddness

I just got back from a Caribbean Cruise with the family! It was sooo much fun! We went to Jamaica, Grand Cayman, and Cozumel!! Cozumel was defiantly my favorite by far. It was a great time. I got to spend so much time with Justin, and totally did not get tired of him, contrary to what everyone thought. We had a little routine worked out for the ship days. We would wake up; I would eat breakfast and talk to all of the Indians in Hindi. By the way was a hightlight of my trip. There were Indians everywhere!! Then I would go and wake the Justin up. Usually after that I would go out on the deck and lay out. Around 2 or 3 justin would go work out and at 3 I would go to tea. It was wonderful, there was a trio that played everyday. They were really great musicians. After tea most days I would sit out on a deck where hardly anyone was and I would read and sleep for a couple of hours. Then when Justin was done working out, so I would do something with him until it was time to get dressed for dinner. Haha… by the way I got jealous for the first time in my life over a guy. Soooo many girls were checking him out, and giving me hate looks because I was the one taking him home. You should have seen it. I was kind of disgraced by the way these girls would look at him. Oh well I would just laugh and kiss him when I was feeling jealous. It is so weird because I have never been a jealous person, but with him it is not that I get mad or upset, but it defiantly puts my in defensive mode. I don' t know why, because I know that he wants me.. I need to get used to it because I guess it is a great sign when every woman that you pass eye rapes your boyfriend.. I've got something going right! Hahaha… Anyways, Dinner was a fun time, because all of the wonderful food. The main chef was Indian so I got some great Indian entrees. After dinner we would either go to a show, we would always listen to music in some way.. or gamble with nanny just watching b/c Justin would not let me… grrr! Then we would conclude the night falling asleep watching movies. Jamaica reminded me of India a lot. I guess when you have seen one third world country you have seen them all.. That was a lie, but the buildings look a lot a like, but of course it is missing the whole culture. Actually all of the shops were owned by Indians. I just had to talk to every Indian that I saw, and I enjoyed it! Jamaica was not that fun because everyone was GROUCHY! I think I was being a brat to Justin and kind of felt bad later. We went to Margaritaville, and I was not hungry so I went down to a different level away from the family. I sat at the bar to listen to a reggae band because there were no tables available. I had more Jamaican men hit on me than was healthy. The bar tender kept asking to buy my drinks and I said no so he just gave me one of the Margaritaville cups. Then another guy just bought me a margarita and brought it to me in front of the whole family. I was kind of embarrassed, and gave it to pappy! We went to a private beach, shopped. Oh, I found a commodore friend. I sat with this old old guy and had him play and sing Bob Marley songs for a really long time. It was so much fun I sang with him every song that I knew! Then it was time to go so we picked up these women who braided all of the women's hair… well, except for Darla and Nanny. It was so much fun because the women were Christian and the whole time we were braided we were singing church songs.
The next port was The Grand Cayman Islands. It was nice, but not all that I expected. I guess I could not get the full potential of the Caribbean blue skies= blue ocean, because it was storming. Never the less, we went snorkeling. It was a great time. I kept on swimming really far away from the group and freaking myself out. Flippers really take you a lot farther than feet . We really did not stay on the Island too long because Sis. Howard and I were really sick with congestion and throat. We also had to be on the boat at 4pm.
The Grand finale was in Cozumel! It was more than wonderful! I loved it so much. Justin, Dev, BB, and I rented mopeds. It was such a great time! We coasted through a rural area with the beach on our side and our worries far away. In Jamaica they taught us a word, "Irie" It means no worries! Great word to explain my mexico trip. We met the rest of the family at Paradise beach. While we were there Justin, Bro. Howard, and I went horseback riding. It was so exhilarating just to be apart of a force. I love riding horses, because you are in control to an extent, but once you start to let the mare fun freely, there is no control. Nature is in control, it almost feels like you are moving with the air. I really didn't get to ride like that too much. I was able to run on the beach for a while. I wish I could have gone off by myself and ran until the horse was exhausted and I was bow-legged for a week! I must have horses someday, but I do not want to have to take care of them, just ride them everyday! After we rode we went snorkeling. That was a very fun reef filled time. I enjoyed it so much more than in the Cayman. We ate quesadillas and swam for the rest of the day. Justin swam in his underware.. haha it was kind of funny. OMG! I forgot to tell you about the mans butt that I grabbed in the Cayman. I was snorkeling and I saw a guy underwater, and I truly thought that it was Jdawg. So, I grabbed a handful of bootie and to my surprise the guy "Justin" leapt out of the water yelling. Haha.. I surfaced and started apologizing. I felt like a dork, but just a little spice for life I guess… you cant live without it! Back to Cozumel, while trying to return the mopeds we got lost in the town, that was a real treat since none of us are fluent in Spanish! That was a little adventure…
Saturday, we were on the ship and a lady jumped from the 11th story deck trying to commit suicide. She made it to the 6th story deck. The ship crew did not know what to do with her body so they left her on the deck for a while. People from our party saw her. They said it was like a movies. It was really sad. Bro. Howard talked to the husband. It was a sad time especially since I had seen her all week celebrating life with her husband. She seemed happy… God rest her soul and help her family
I can not wait for the next cruise!!
GOD BLESS

In the Airport again...

In the airport again.. I just cant wait to be in the airport again Here I am bored sitting in the ghetto Oakland airport listening to Neil Young! That can be wonderful but depressing. Wonderful because Neil Young is a sensation and I am in an airport, but the depressing side is that I am going home to The Woodlands and Neil can be kind of depressing at times.. Listen you will see what I mean! Okay, I am leaving California for a while. I do not know when I will make this strenuous move again. I am sure I will live here again, but not for a while.
So the wedding and wedding parties! To start off the wedding was beautiful, wonderful, and so sweet! I was really surprised how wonderful it turned out. Thursday we Fredericks went to the church and worked all day decorating for the wedding. It was an all day affair. We left and had about thirty minutes to get dressed for the rehearsal dinner. Andrea and I rushed around and made it to the dinner about an hour late! That is fashionable or just straight late! The dinner was nice. It was BBQ so I really did not eat anything, but the socializing was a blast. Later that night all of the bridesmaids and I went to Nickys house for Nells last night with the girls! We had a greatCRAZY, yet still clean time. Well we got home way too late, and had to wake up way too early! We went to the church early that morning and stayed till really late that night!! The girls arrived way too late, and expected me to fix everyones hair. That did not happen. I had to have help, and the hair did not turn out the way I intended, but I tried What can I say except, I came I tried and I conquered! Okay I know I am wearing that phrase out, but it is just soooooo much fun, and I can not help it. The bliss of those fateful words! The wedding was beautiful. Everyone in the party cried I think. I almost cried, because it made me want to The flight attendant has a Huge butt! Oakland is extremely ghetto. The attendant was just telling me about the flight prior to this one. He said that there were two drunken men throwing beer cans at each other. The crew said that the Oakland crowd is always sketchy! They said that southwest has a deal that goes to Las Vegas every Thursday. The attendants call it Hooker Thursday, and they have had to tell the women to put more clothing on. That is crazy insane in the membrane. I am on the same flight with Kristens (from CLC) parents. How ironic is that Probably not to ironic since I am flying from a port close to Stockton. Anyhow.. School started today, and I am really excited to get back into the grand scheme of things. Today I went to an International relations school in Monterrey. I would love to go eventually. We will see what crazy turns that life throws at me. Who knows where I will be in 4 or 5 years. Me and my ADD lifestyle! I really want to go back to India soon, and if I want to go to an International Relations school that will be very important. An International charity program looks great on the transcript! Believe me that it is not the only reason I want to do it! That is my heart, my passion is to serve God, and doing his work is exercising that passion!

Black Walnut Cafe

Black Walnut .. an older blog, I would not post it before today
Okay So I am supposed to be studying, but the forces of nature will not allow me, or perhaps it is my attention deficit disorder, inevitably I am at a loss of attention span. I am back in the states and I can honestly say that I would rather be in a country that has an terrorist threat on its brow. I do not know what is wrong with me. Honestly I have pleaded with myself to allow my freebird to ascend into the clouds of confusion, and allow me to live my American dream. The more I try to drive my love for adventure away the more it revolts, such as a teenager with authority. I love my parents, and I love their life, but I know that it is not my dream their life is not my dream. Most peoples life is everything contrary to what I desire. Sure they lead passionate lives, but the typical person does not die from passion as I do. I can truly say that I am passionate about everything, from my clothes that I put upon my back to the God that I serve. I have so much ambition at times that I wonder if I have a problem, and I dream entirely way too much. The million dollar question is, is this healthy or is it venomous to my self-esteem. I think sometimes when I cannot achieve everything that I want I feel like a failure, and this leads to an unhealthy state of mind. I am great, but since I have been home I have felt so stagnate. Where am I supposed to be, am I to put myself through the stress and torture of going to a place, which I have a love-hate relationship with. Staying right here in Sunny Ville is the ethical, logical, and finally the mature choice, but contrary to what my heart is telling me. Since I have been here I have felt like a video cassette put into one of the 1990 rewind machines, and once I reached the beginning of my saved life I am put into slow motion. It is completely horrifying to think of me actually going back to that premature state of existence. I have gone through so much, and there is no turning back. It is an inevitable dead-end, because I know that I cannot do what I really want to do and it totally kills me inside. I want to be free, but my duties will not allow it. I watched Tristan and Isole last night, and it really made me think about my duties. I have so much that I am supposed to do in my life What is expected of me, but my heart is screaming nothing but the ordinary.. Please nothing but the ordinary! As I sit here in my favorite restaurant of all times, family on their way, I am thinking of a million other places I would rather be. I can be so ungrateful and completely bratty, but I cannot lie about my feelings. My heart is not here.. I love these people more than life, but life has molded me and twisted me into this being that does not crave attention and acceptance from other, but lonely girl in search for something greater. I can not wait for this

Cali.. I love you

California.. California..here we come!! Here I am! I love you ..I need you,..I miss you!
Ha.. I am in California. I came a week ago, and I am leaving tomorrow. I have really enjoyed my self! Tuesday I went to Stockton. Justin post-phoned his ticket so that he could see me! We met at CLC chapel. I thought the service was going to make me really sad, but it did no such thing. In fact I felt kind of a peace of mind after I said goodbye to all of the people, which I love so much! It is weird what time and circumstances can do a person. I had such a wonderful time with my Justin! We went and ate Mongolian BBQ! I love it so much. Then we went to my storage building and packed for hours!!! It was actually fun with Justonious there!! Bex was there with her dadish doing the same thing as I. It was sad, but fun. I am really going to miss that girl. I have been missing Ishta so bad.. so so so badly! I guess after you see a person every minute of every day for a year you get kind of close to them. Plus we share a understand that many people can not comprehend. This week has been packed full of fun times. The reason we really came out here was to help with Danelle and Matts wedding. I did the every ones hair, and had a really stressful time. The wedding was a huge success and Matt and nell are happily on their honeymoon. Starbucks is closing so I will have tell you about the some really special details! I went to church, and watched two seasons of Gilmore Girls! It has been fun, but I am ready to get in the ritual of school and have a reality check on life! ciao

Tash+Sushi=Unhappy African

I have a funny story that I never posted! The other day Tashobya and I went to the Grand to eat Sushi! I was really excited, and he was really nervous! Well I ordered him spicy tuna roll and I got a sake roll.. It was seriously the funniest thing I have ever seen.. The food got there and he just looked at it. I started to eat and I wondered why he was not indulging. Ha.. I asked him, Tash why are you not eating your sushi and he said, That is mine I thought it was your appetizer I laughed! He was soo funny He ate a few pieces until I told him that it is raw fish.. He was a bit freaked out by that and ate no more. I Ordered seaweed and god knows he would not try that! It was a five star restaurant so the portions are small, and Tash is African! He kept ordering and ordering so much food. He ran the tab up to almost $2000rs. I thought it was really funny! Haha.. It is crazy how conservative these Africans are with their food.. I guess not all Africans, because the Philberts like sushi! Okay Ugandans!! Haha.. I love them so much though. I am sad that I will we going home in a week. That really makes me want to cry! I wont see Ishta for God knows how long. Tears tear.. Mixed emotions

Hurmmm.. Birthdays.. Sour milk.. church.. and the green monster

Kuchis 11th birthday party! We went to Food and fun village for the day! It was really fun! I got to be a big kid for the day. I was in the wave pool with all of these kids! I was soo happy to be in the water. They nicknamed me Aqua Audra, because I was in the water all day. It was mainly Ish, Paula, Philibert, and me swimming. Tashobya got in later. There were a lot of really fun water slides and rollercosters! We had so much fun. I got really burnt. Like more burnt than I have been in a really long time. We came home and went to TGIF. I felt like I was at home. It was crazy, because there were soo many white people. It was cool besides the fact that this Nigerian guy spilt beer on me. Later on I was talking to Justin, and complaining MOB (Ugandan slang rubbing off) and he told me to pour milk over my body. Ahh.. I hate the smell of milk, and on top of that buffalo milk. That junk is rank! I had to let it dry on my body and then wash it off. It was the most horrifying experience I have ever faced.. I have smelt like milk all day! I preached today at church. It was my first time to preach, and I got totally distracted when Ester started crying.. I lost track! It is okay though! I rested in the afternoon. Tonight Fatuma (the ambassador daughter from Senegal) came over with her friend from Paris. It was a good time! Now I have to end this wonderful blog, because I am going to go to watch Pirates of the Caribbean
Ciao.
P.s. I was so mad at justin because he went to Racal Flatts and went backstage and all of that Jazz.. I was really wanting to be in San Diego at that moment!

Reality Check

Today was the most eye opening day that I have had since I have been here. I went to Prayas and after I was finished teaching the director asked me if I wanted to see the living conditions of the children at the school. I said sure, and was I in for a shock. It was the most depressing sobering experience that I have ever had. As I walked through the small streets of this slum, which is built on a dump, flys were swarming all over me to the extent of me not being able to see, because they were so clustered around my face. The smell was unbearable, there were babies running around naked, people bathing in the street, the smell of marijuana was suffocating. It was absolutely horrible.I have a few favorites in the class. Like that little girl that I have a picture with on my photos (everyone thinks she is a boy). I was walking with the director and she started calling me "dee dee, come", because she wanted to show me her home. I went into this shack, which is no larger that a walk in closet with ceilings no higher than 6ft...If that. Inside was one twin size bed, so much dirt and grime, a small cooking fire in the middle of the floor, and a few house hold things. The director told me that she shared this house with her 9 yes 9 siblings and her parents. Her mother is Muslim and does not believe in contraceptives. Is not that the worst thing you have ever heard. The most devastating thing about the whole matter was the fact that she was so proud of her home and desperately wanted me to come and see it. It made me think of how disgusting and frivolous we.. I can be. To think that someone could be happy with nothing.. absolutely nothing proves the fact that happiness does not come by materialism, but by unity and worship. She does not even know the love of Jesus, imagine how God could transform a person that humble. I was so convicted! It was the same from house to house. I saw the most dyer situations of these poor innocent children. I cried on my auto ride home, because it was so horrible. I will never be able to get that out of my mind. The thing that kills me is even if I had millions of dollars I could not get these people out of their situations.. I cannot save the world...After I went to Prayas I took an auto to Pryia. I met Tashobya and Nick at Yo China. It is the Panda express of India.. but totally authentic and nothing like panda! We did some shopping, and I got a mani/pedi for the Gala. Okay it was probably more for me, and I was justifying my splendor. I met a woman from Hilton Head Island! I was really excited to talk to an american about a place that I totally love! It has been raining like crazy..Monsoon ..n..nOn the way home my auto guy got pulled over twice. I think it was his first day, and usually that would have really tickled my belly, but I was soo stressed because it was 5:30 and the Rwandese Independence Day Gala started at 7.. I had not straightened my hair..Ahyaiyai..n..nThe Gala was a Red carpet affair! It was so much fun! The girls and I wore our sarees, as you have probably seen in the pictures. It was very nice, besides all of the olddiplomats hitting on me like I was fresh bait. It was really cool to see all of the people dressed up eating and drinking like lavishing goats.. haha not really! Okay maybe I was a bit cynical because of my day at Prayas, but I guess I was indulging on the wonderful foods too. There were a lot of VIP..'s there. I cannot remember the guest of honor.. I think a defencesecretary of India.. I cannot remember! A few did traditional dances.. Philbert and Jeff were dancing! It was really cute! I want to learn the dance, because it was so graceful! I really enjoyed myself. ..n..nPecos (Ishta..'s daddy) got in from Uganda today and is going to be here for a while! ..n..n..n",0]
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After I went to Prayas I took an auto to Pryia. I met Tashobya and Nick at Yo China. It is the Panda express of India.. but totally authentic and nothing like panda! We did some shopping, and I got a mani/pedi for the Gala. Okay it was probably more for me, and I was justifying my splendor. I met a woman from Hilton Head Island! I was really excited to talk to an american about a place that I totally love! It has been raining like crazy..Monsoon
On the way home my auto guy got pulled over twice. I think it was his first day, and usually that would have really tickled my belly, but I was soo stressed because it was 5:30 and the Rwandese Independence Day Gala started at 7.. I had not straightened my hair..Ahyaiyai
The Gala was a Red carpet affair! It was so much fun! The girls and I wore our sarees, as you have probably seen in the pictures. It was very nice, besides all of the old diplomats hitting on me like I was fresh bait. It was really cool to see all of the people dressed up eating and drinking like lavishing goats.. haha not really! Okay maybe I was a bit cynical because of my day at Prayas, but I guess I was indulging on the wonderful foods too. There were a lot of VIP's there. I cannot remember the guest of honor.. I think a defence secretary of India.. I cannot remember! A few did traditional dances.. Philbert and Jeff were dancing! It was really cute! I want to learn the dance, because it was so graceful! I really enjoyed myself.
Pecos (Ishta's daddy) got in from Uganda today and is going to be here for a while!

The India Times

Howdy
The last couple of days have been fun! Tashobya's friends from Bangalore are down for the week. Oh my word, there is a guy named Nick, and seriously he is the funniest guy that I have ever met. Even looking at him I start to laugh. He has an afro with a red stripe down the middle, and he has Madonna teeth. His laugh is hilerious, as soon as he starts to laugh you can not help but to join him! We have had a fun time with those guys! Friday night we did nothing, and I was too hyper for my own good. I do not know what possessed me, but I was bouncing off of the ceiling for hours. I settled down for a Simpsons episode, and then made I got really hungry. At 2am I decided to make french frys. I didn't know how to make them, and Tashobya got stuck with the job. My energy extended into the next day. I woke up Saturday morning psycho again! I ended up going to Priya and eating at Chokola! I seriously have a passion for that place. It is a God sent.That night we hung out with everyone and watched movies. I am reading an Anne Rice book presently, and Queen pf the Damned came on, so I was entertained! Philibert came over and we made plans to go to the National Museum. Sunday morning Philbert and I went to the museum. It was really nice....Except for the fact that I was at the India gate and there was a bomb threat at the gate. They found no bomb. I went to church. It was a very nice service, because God moved as always! Ishta did an excellent job preaching, and I did the scripture reading. I went to sleep early.. Today I woke up and went to Prayas. It was a nice day, but I really did not spend a lot of time with the kids. I taught my guitar lesson and then helped in the office with some legal papers. I left and walked to Priya! It was such an adventure. I was safe, and one of my students even walked with me! I got a bit lost, but it was a refreshing walk. When I got to Priya I went to the grocery market. I cooked tonight so I had to get ingredient. My meal was really good! I made sole fish on a half cup of rice. When I bought the fish they gave it to me in whole, as in with the eyes, fins, and gills, but I must have showed my fright in my expression, and the deli guy fillet it for me. I also cooked mashed potatoes, stir-fried okra, french bread, and chocolate sundays with kiwi and pineapple! It was wonderful!! So that is my weekend! Oh by the way my last blog was not accurate with the death count on the bombings in Mumbi. It was like 260 dead and 700 injured.. So keep the families in your prayers, and never keep not only your country, but all of the worlds government and trials. India really needs prayer, but so does every other country. God Bless

Monsoon has Arrived

Namaste friends,
These last couple of days have been so fantastic! I have been at Prayas everyday, and totally loving it. These kids make me feel so badly. They are so precious and they have nothing. The camp that they live in is built on a dump. Most of them are either homeless or were rescued from trafficking or child labour. It really kills me every time they look at me with their eyes full of hope, but their hope downed by pain and fear. You can tell that many of them have been through hell, and yet they are so strong. It really disintegrated my pride to see a little girl that has scars all over her body just rubbing my arms in total amazement. They all have skin problems. It turns my stomach to see a lot of their faces, because they have nasty bumps, or open wombs, and some even have huge bruises. I think this experience has been the most eye opening because these kids are so joyful even though materialistically they have nothing. Kids in the US can be soo bratty. I am not saying these kids are perfect, but they are soldiers. Some of them are 6 years old and have already worked in a factory. Or the 10 year old that has already been a prostitute. It should really make us take a step back and reflect.. Also what is really mesmerizing is that these kids pray so much and are totally serious about it. Religion is such a huge part of life here, and I just hope that I can match their dedication. WE are so fortunate....
What else has happened?! I have been taking pictures like crazy, but this computer has issues and will not allow me to publish them to a website. I have not been able to sleep and that has been kind of stressful, but melatonin will help me there! My week has been relatively boring! I went to church Sunday, and I wore my saree, and it was too hot. Oh my word, I was praise singing and I nearly passed out. Monday I went to Prayas, and slept the rest of the day, because I was stupid and started a mystery a few hours before a normal bed hour, and I had to finish it. Tuesday was a day at Prayas, then I took an auto to Pryia, and ate at Pizza Hut! That was a great time. Then later that night I Went to Bible study. It was a great study. Every Tuesday night bible study is at Dpekah's house. She is such a sweet heart! She got us McDonalds last week, because it was her birthday. She is soo wonderful. God needs to send her a man! Today I went to Prayas, and went straight home, because the girls at the beauty class got a hold of me, and they asked me if they could put lip stick on me, and I said sure.. That was the wrong thing to say! The whole class saw opportunity, and surrounded me with pencils and brushes.. I know I may be a bit gaunt and my hair may be a little frizzy from Monsoon, but dang they really wanted to make me look better! I came out of the room looking like a clown.. YIKES! They were saying "You are looking verdy verdy smart!" ha.. it was a funny time. So.. I have to get dressed because I am going to this girls house that I met at Philberts house. Her pops is an ambassador to Congo I think?! I am excited.. She has friends from Brussels visiting her. I met this guy in a coffee shop the other day ( he is from Mumbi, I hope he is okay with all of the bombings today) he is a model.. and dang he was the most attractive guy I have seen in awhile, and he told me that I was "looking verdy cutes.. " haha...well good thing that is not my focus at all! How can I go from anti-trafficking to models in one blog. It's me so I guess anything is possible. Not too predictable! I have to teach Bible study tomorrow. I wish I would have brought over material from school. That would have been really smart! Next visit...Always next time! Saturday we have a party to attend after prayer. It is going to be for this guy named Lee that is the Tanzanian ambassadors son. We met at the south African high commission memorial thing. So that will be fun to be formal for the night! I am going to raid the kitchen and try to find something to munch on.. I am starved! I wish I could post pictures. I will probably end up posting them on blogger or hello.. So all of you get hello from google. I feel like I am missing something...Oh yeah last night there were seven bombings in Mumbi, which is the same distance of Houston from Austin. That is a bit close for comfort. 100 or more people were killed and 200 at least were injured. So please pray for the families of the deceased, the safety of the people of India..including myself, and wisdom for the authorities so that they can find, and put whoever it is to justice. Alrighty Ciao for now..>

The Grand.

Today I was feeling...hot (because there has been a blackout over Delhi all week), Grumpy (because I have not been alone once since I have been here), and deprived (because I have wanted other food besides INDIAN cuisine.. which I have not been able to put in my mouth since my glimpse of death sickness last week), and mostly homesick (because I live with a family that is very much a family, and as much as they try to make me family...I am not). So, I took myself out to the Grand hotel. It was safe, because I can see it from my flat. I went there with the intention to swim at the spa, but when I got there I went to this uber posh sushi restaurant. It was so nice! I had my sushi and read the news paper, and then had this wonderful desert, Five spice chocolate pudding and caramel gelatto! YUMM! It was nice the to be totally alone, and the only thing I had to worry about was.. well nothing! Then I went to the spa, and I was going to swim, but instead I went to the Cafe. I was placed in front of this HUGE window, which viewed the court yard with all of its fountains and landscape Majesty! I ordered coffee, and after reading my book for about an hour I decided I wanted a croissant. I asked for one, and they brought me this basket full of all types of pastries, muffins, and croissants. I was like, "Oh my word this is going to break me, no more eating while in Delhi!" The manager came up to me and said, "You are looking (nod of the head) verdy verdy familiar. You are Drew Berrymore are you not?!" ha.. "no I am not!" Please someone tell me I do not look like her. That is twice that someone has actually thought that I was her. Not just looking like her, but actually wanting my autograph. So I continued reading and eating as a glutenous hog. I sat there for a few hours, and then finally asked for my tab. The manager came to me and informed me that He, a waiter, and a man at the bar split my tab! Wow.. I love being a woman! haha.. He said it was because I was so kind to them! So.. actually it is just my Godly personality peaking through, and maybe a little bit of men being men...I am sick of this blackout.. It is way to hot for this..It is insanity! I am going to Prayas to work tomorrow, and I pray that the fans will be working... Pray church pray! Tomorrow I am going to the Rwandan ambassador's to swim, after work. SO... this means I will get a converter. His driver took my camera chord two weeks ago, and said he was going to get me a converter.. I have not been back over, which explains the lack there of pictures! Tomorrow is a new day and new meaning will come to my life in the form of a digital screen... You will see so many pictures you will be sick! I can not believe that I did not observe my American Independence day.. I am a lousy citizen. I forgot to even say "God bless America", because I forgot it was the day! I am going to celebrate the Rwandan Independence day on the 19h.. There is going to be a gala. As for the church progress... We had the largest crowd that I have ever seen the other day. There were about 25 people at home bible study, and I was speaking that day. I am really enjoying teaching Bible Studies, it is edifying both in spirit and responsibility. Sherry went to Uganda for the rest of the summer, so i have the room all to myself! And anyone who knows me knows that I am loving the alone time. I have realized that my family is very reserved. Well compared to this African culture that I have entered into. Like I can be at him and read in my room for hours, and no one will enter, or think it is selfish of me to want to be alone. I thrive on my alone times. It is weird my perfect day is either being totally alone praying,reading, eating, drawing, meditating, or doing yoga. To some that is so weird and selfish.. Do not get me wrong I love being with people, but I have realized that my closest friends are the ones that I can go to a coffee shop with and we do not have to say a single word to one another, and we feel completely comfortable.. not an awkward silence in sight! I guess I am just a social... I am not going to say "dud" because I can be a butterfly if I feel like it.. I do not know.. I guess I am just content with making myself happy, only with Gods help! Well That is all for now..
Tkea*

The Taj Mahal

The Taj Mahal
The TaJ...
Okay so it has been over a week since I went... I have tried many times to write this blog, but my attempts have always been in vain because of this wonderful computer. SO.. I want my man to love me enough to build a taj Mahal for me.. I am only kidding the story is tragic. For those who do not know the history this emperor built this magnificent building for his wife who died while it was being built. The emperors son overthrew his father and imprisoned him. He put him in the Augra Fort, which is across from the Taj. The only view of the emperor was the taj. So he was basically miserable for the rest of his life while he was thinking about the suffering he had caused India for the price of a building. Crazy.. Anyways it was a wonderful experience! I hate Augra though. It was so hot. I woke up at 4am and went on the speed train to Augra. A man told me that you have not lived until you have trained India, and the short train ride inspired me! I will have pictures as soon as I get them! SO I have been SICK AS A DAWG! I got food poisoning Friday and I have been near to death ever since. I Finally went to the hospital yesterday. I am feeling a bit better! What else has happened?? I went to the Bridal Saree market. OMG they are so beautiful, and to think that they make them all by hand. WOW. I want all of my wedding party in dresses made by these people! Well this is going to be a short blog, because I am feeling like I am going to be sick! Ciao

I never want to come Home.

I never want to come home!
I never want to go home! I love it here so much! This is totally carnal but I love the way that I am treated here! It is all VIP! The last couple of days have been a blast! Sunday was church, and it was so awesome. These people have such a love for God even though it is not a CLC, crazy, totally on fire church, they truly love Jesus. Monday Ishta and I went all over Delhi looking for tutors. It was a lot of fun to see all of the city. This city is HUGE, and so dynamic. There are so many different sides to Delhi. Slums/mansions, markets/ huge metro malls! I love it So Monday we were in this building that was under construction. Ish and I got onto a lift, and I was a bit freaked out by the operator. He was chuckling and had a super sketchy expression on his face.. One of a psycho chain saw murder killer on downers. I told him that I needed to go to the 2nd floor and he presses 2, thus taking me to the basement.. I naturally kind of freaked out and said 2nd story 2nd story! So he laughed and pressed 0. So we got to the main floor and I was a bit freaked out, and then the electricity went out Survival instinct kicked in and I totally freaked out! Then the electricity came back on and the guy was laughing really hard!! Freak machine Wow, so that night we went to dinner at this Arabian place. It was so awesome. We met a few of Ishtas brothers friends from Morocco and Syria. They were extremely friendly and so fun! They invited me to Morocco.. Very tempting. I also ate at Mc Donalds! I got a veggie burger, because that is all they have! I think God created India just for me! Tuesday Ish and I took an auto to an area called Green Park and got Pedicures! 90* for a pedi.. that is under $2.00! It was seriously the best pedi I have ever gotten in my whole life. They really cared about what they were doing, unlike the china man places in the mall! Haha.. maybe I am just paying for what I get, but I like paying 90* vs. $30. Tuesday night was Bible study. It was great! There were two Hindu women that I had never seen, and our chauffeur came in. He is Roman Catholic. Wednesday we went to the Rwandan High Counselors house and went swimming. The pools here are so wonderful. They are all marble and really big! That was a good day! I am starting to meet a lot of awesome people. Today I went to the shelter that I am starting to work at tomorrow. It is called Prayas. Visit the site; www.prayaschildren .org. It is a great place and is heavily endorsed by the US. In fact Laura Bush was at the facility earlier this month helping out. I am really excited about it! Next month I am going to start teaching at a homeless school in the slums. It is separate from Prayas, though Prayas is also a school. Prayas means new beginning. Then after that I came home and went with Ishtas brother to the Rwandan Ambassadors house to swim. That was amazing! An estate with 20ft. walls around it! It looked like the house on Ace Ventura. Funny comparison but that is what I thought of. It was amazing! The Ambassador was a total sweetheart! I am meeting the American Ambassadors son this weekend! AMERICANS>>>> I really dont care, but I guess it is nice to see white skin. These Indians are really really dark. Darker than black people! The ambassadors house was grand! OMG The walk to the pool was exquisite; one thing that is so awesome about Delhi is all of the gardens. There are wonderful gardens everywhere. The sidewalk to the pool was lined with palm trees all the way to the pool, which was far! The landscape was fantastic. It is crazy because here in India the staff manicures the lawn with scissors. It is funny to see people cutting grass.. Well I was supposed to go to a benefit play for Prayas tonight. I was very excited because the Prime Minister was there, but on the way home from the ambassadors casa our travels were halted due to a strike. People were in the streets fighting with sticks. This was quite a culture shock. I dont know exactly why they were striking, something about a water line. Something that didnt seem to be striking worthy to me! Well I am tired and I am going to hit the sac. Miss you all That is the only thing that totally sucks about it here, is the lack of family and friends! Ciao for now... Tkea*

India... At last!

India At Last!
I cannot believe I am here! It is so wonderful! I am not even really going through culture shock as every one thought I was going to face. I love it! The house i am staying in is wonderful. It is huge with air condition, toliets, windows everywhere, and marble. God really gave mercy to me! I am so excited about everything. I have such a love and burden for these people I never want to leave. Last night we had home bible studies, and the people were so passionate! This really excited me. They want to win every person in the 15million + city. It is awesome because I can hear the street vendors yelling.. I don't know why that is awseome. I guess maybe because it is so much different than everything that i am used to. Yesterday I was sitting on my balcony and I came to the conclusion that I am going to be a missionary. I have no desire to go back to the states. This may change after a while, but I really do not think so. It has sparked this adventurist side of me that if you know me, you know that it was already a prominent side of my personality. Adventure brings out everything that I am! I love it. I love how the women dress. Today i am going to get sari's.. Isha and I are going to try to learn Hindi, because there is hardly any english spoken here. Well tata..ciao

I have the life.

Wow I have the life. Today I woke up at 11am and rode my bike to the wonderful beautiful Ocean Beach! It was the best day ever. I am on spring break. I have to live on the beach someday soon! I am exhausted after a really long day at the beach and then dinner in SeaPort Village. I am watching the Jeff Foxworthy show and waiting on everyone to get back from the movies. This has been a great break. I have desided that I am only going to go to CLC for one more semester, beacause I cannot live there much longer, and stay sane.. I am going crazy. I can not believe that they are so set on proving themselves that they focus on the most petty things. I am sick of thigs like this.. and I do not want to go back. I wish I could just move down here. I do not have much down here. I wish I could just figure everything out NOW! I do have a long time to get my life in order though. The other night I was really thinking about everything, and I talked to Justin for awhile about things, and It made me realze about myself. Oh well I am going to watch Friends!! Ciao... By the way my spring break has been AWESOME!

Weird little Poem.

Sensational Penetration
In the absence of fear
Frustration leads to invigoration
Complication into Abomination
When will this Isolation End
And become the Insulation to my Soul
Saturation of the Heart transitions into Illegitimate Hope,
This beats the Incandescent feelings of Exhilaration
And Uninhibited Infatuation
Just a weird little poem i wrote last night... take it how you will!

7 Social Sins

Seven Social Sins
The "seven social sins":Knowledge without character,Science without humanity,Wealth without work,Commerce without morality,Politics without principles,Pleasure without conscience,Worship without self-sacrifice.
-Gandhi


Jesus I love you
Not because you been so faithful not because you have been so good you have always been there for me supply my every need.. you were there when I was lonely you were there though all my pain guiding my footsteps shelter from the rain … and it was you that made my life complete. You are to me my everything, and that is why I say…

Jesus I love you I love you, because you care. I couldn’t imagine if you were not there.

You are source of my content your peace in my storm your guiding light protects me it shelters me from harm you are alpha and omega the beginning in the end you my strong tower my dearest and best friend, you are to me my everything and that is why I say…

And it was you that made my life complete. You are to me my everything
And that is why I sing.

Jesus I love you
I love you
I love you
Because you are you

Fly Me to the Moon

Fly me to the moon Some times oh how I wish I could just Go Away. I am in Theology of the Church, and I am kind of bored. Uhh Lala I want a far away place a place that is so far away. No one that knows anything about me/my kind. I had a dream a few nights ago. I dreamt that, I was doing my laundry naked outside of my dorm. I didnt realize that I was naked until Vanessa C. text me and told me. I looked over and She, Gary David, and Micah Johnson were in the car next to me. Gary was gagging, and that really upset me. So I covered myself and ran towards my room. I ran through mud and go all dirty. Anyways, As I ran up the stairs Jake Palma was just chilling by my room. I was so embarrassed. I covered myself and apologized. I interpreted my dream, and there are so many weird meanings. Like Me doing Laundry out side shows that, my life is exposed. Me suddenly realizing that I m naked means that I have a sexual tension and I am hiding something. I dont know of anything I am hiding. I guess I may be able to see the tension. Then the mud isI really can not remember. Then my embarrassment shows that I want to impress people. I guess I want to impress the student senate. I do not know. I do know that a friend, Bali, and waking up at 3pm everydayAnd people will sing, Aint no sunshine when shes gone. Aint no sunshine when she is gone, and she is always gone to long, any time she goes away I can not wait for the day when a am so gratis. My family will give up hope that I will be home for Thanksgiving I will say to many nights of adventure to lie without. I want to see every world wonder. I want to be the wildflower that is love. I want to be educated in many fields. I will not have to stay in one place for any longer than I want. I know that may be irresponsible of me, but I am the rain. I come from one place or source, and fall everywhere. I want ski Switzerland on the 3rd, and in Africa working with Red Cross on the 20th. I want to publish multiple volumes of my experience, and the lack there of. I want to always be happy. I want love to always be the most active thing about my life. I want, Passion to control every thought. I want to backpack Tibet and understand the meaning of perfect peace and harmony. As for my lover, I want a man to totally love every imperfection that makes me unique. I want a guy that will laugh at my jokes. I want someone who will simply hold me, and make my world stop turning with a mere touch. Someone that will love my grandmother, and listen to all of her stories of old. He will want to ride motorcycles with my pops. I also want someone who acts just like my dad. My dad is one of the most noble men on this planet, and I want to love someone with all of the same character traits. I want to be urban but still have the inner country bunckin mentality. Audra Rochelle Frederick- Noble Little Rock Dr. Segraves just told the meaning of his name. Daniel- Judged by God!! He said it kept him sober. Haha I love Dr. Dan! Caleb means dog. You know what else I want?! I want to be a size 2 for the rest of my life. Your so vain, I bet you think this song is about youyour so vain! I LOVE LIFE I really do I think that if I did not live a life of adventure I could live, but it is not me. I only ask of life one thing, and that is happiness. I will have happiness if I have God, passion and love. So go on girlget down and fly me to the moon.

Blahh..

blahhhh....
Ahhh.. I am in a very weird mood. I am not sure that I want to be here. I just got back to Stockton, from Christmas break. I am ready to be in India. I had a very weird day, I woke up late. Then I went to the office, where I had a Rose Bowl shirt waiting on me!! GO TEXAS! I have trust in you! Then I rode a bus to the mall. On the way I had to change busses, because I had no earthly idea what I was doing. I had to wait with this CRAZY lady next to me. She was laughing hysterically at me. I thought maybe because I am a very confused and out of place little, blonde, nicely dressed, cell phone and iPod in one hand, and mace in the other. I guess I would have laugh at myself if I were a fat bum with maybe all of my belongings in my suitcase that I was taking on the bus. I asked her where she was going, and she answered, “Wherever the next bus is going.” Though she did not get on the next bus because it was only going to the mall.. It made me think about how great of a life that I have. Thank you Jesus. Image having nothing… I don’t know if she was just a nomad or if she had just been kicked out onto the streets by her husband. You never know. The bus experience was amazing. I did it just for the heck of it, but I actually kind of liked it. It is a whole other world/culture for me…